Heart Vs. Mind: Colifer

Chapter 7: The Words

"Colin?! What are you doing home? Why aren't you in Vancouver?!"

Every word she said I felt more mortified.

"Helen, I thought you weren't going to be home for two weeks?!"

Now it all made sense. Not only did Colin not tell Helen he was coming home, but he knew Helen would be gone until I left. He wanted to be alone with me that bad, he lied about Helen wanting to "see me" and completely broke his own wife's heart.

I could see on her face she was slowly breaking. Not angry. Not rude. Just disappointed, sad, and brokenhearted.

"I always knew there was something with you two. That chemistry on TV I was made to watch every Sunday wasn't acting, it was real. Now she was crying.

"Helen I am so sorry...I managed to get out."

"No you aren't! Don't even try to sewage your guilt. How dare you, Jennifer. "

What she did next surprised me. She went up to Colin and pushed him into the wall. She was very upset, and I didn't blame her.

She stomped upstairs. I didn't know what she was doing, nor did Colin. He closely followed behind. All I could hear was "I am so sorry." Boy was I,

I was mortified. I was embarrassed. I felt horrible. I ran to the guest room and picked up all my things and shoveled them into a few bags. Fortunately I wasn't fully unpacked anyways, because I was kissing with Colin. I couldn't see this guilt leaving me for a long time.

About a half hour later, Helen came storming downstairs with 3 suitcases and her 2 kids following close behind.

"Mama what's happening?" Evan said.

Evan looked at me.

Helen kneeled down to his eye level.

"Son, don't talk to her or look at her. We are going to stay at Grandma's house. Go to the car."

I started to cry. I couldn't imagine how it felt to walk in on your husband in the arms of another girl. And I never wanted to.

Helen left 10 minutes later with the only car they had. She didn't say a word to Colin, but I think Colin knew exactly how she felt when she slammed the door as hard as she could.

I had my coat and bags and I was ready to leave. Did I enjoy my time with Colin before Helen came in? Yes. But we are never going to be anything, and I had to get out of this place before I kept falling in love with him.

"Jen I uh..." Colin said.

"Don't Colin. Stop. I want to go home.

"I don't have a car, Jennifer."

"I'll call a driver."

"You could stay here till morning, Jen. Its almost 1 in the morning."

"Don't tell me what to do! How could you lie to me and put me in this situation! And the worst part was...I was falling in love with you." I was now in tears. "I've loved you for a while,"

"Jen please. Come here. I didn't mean for this to happen. We can talk. Give me 5 minutes, then you can call a driver."

"Fine, I managed to say between tears."

"Jennifer. I love Helen. She is amazing, she is kind, gentle-hearted, and we've had a long history."

I started to walk away. Nice, Colin. I just told you I loved you and all you can say is how much you love your wife? I stopped my thoughts and kept walking.

"Jen come here. Let me finish. Of course I love my wife. But we got married young. We dulled out. We are great friends; we even are flirty at times. But that's it. You are everything to me, Jen. Ever since you kissed me outside of Granny's," He giggled. "I knew. I knew you were the one. "

He grabbed my hand.

"It was a mistake having you come. I know that. But I was letting you slip out of my fingertips, moving back to LA and all...I couldn't let that happen. I love you, Jennifer Morrison. I love you."

I couldn't believe he said the words, I didn't know how to feel. I felt like I still couldn't have him, and what he said just crushed my soul once and for all. I was sobbing now. I wasn't a girl who showed my emotions so heavily, especially in front of people, but I couldn't help it.

"Colin?"

"Yes?"

"Decide what you want. I can't let you break my heart... so I'm going to break my own."

I walked out. But before I did, I glanced at Colin one last time.

I saw a tear roll down his cheek.

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