It's Too Late

Chapter 18

Emily's POV

It's been three days. Three days of me laying in bed only getting up to use the bathroom. Three days since I've eaten. Three days of not knowing what he is doing or thinking. These three days have felt like years. My parents haven't even noticed that I'm home laying in my own misery. What has Ross been doing? Is he upset? Is he even still here in Denver? Callie, Rydel, and Ryland have stopped by my house multiple times on the first day. Ryland, it was like he never left. He would knock every fifteen minutes it seemed like. On the second day Ryland and Rydel stopped by a couple of times together. On the third day, Ryland came over once. Now on the fourth day no one even bothered to try. Maybe I should stop soaking in my own sorrows. I'm pretty much walked into all of this. I got up took a long well needed shower and got dressed into comfy clothes. The sunlight in the kitchen hurt my eyes from being  under my blankets for four days. I saw an orange setting on the counter, maybe I should eat something. My appetite wasn't  back, but I ate it anyway. I grabbed my phone and decided to turn it on. I had about 21 missed calls, 43 messages, and a ton of Instagram and Twitter notifications. Definitely never turning my phone off for four days ever again, this is ridiculous. All the phone calls were from the Lynch family and Callie. I noticed most of them were from Ross. Same thing with the text messages. I made the terrible decision to read some of them.

Ross- Emily, I know everything that I did was wrong. I regret hurting you, and I never wanted things to go as far as they did. Please give me a chance to explain.

Ross- Please please please talk to me Emily! It upsets me knowing that you're hurting. Please let me make things right. I'm sorry for everything.

Ross- I know I'm probably starting to sound pathetic trying to text you all the time, but I can't help it. I need to know that you're alright. Please answer me. I need to know you're okay. It's been two days.

Ross- Emily, please talk to me. I know I screwed up, but I want to try and make things right again. I know you most likely won't forgive me, but I want you to know how sorry I am. Answer me when you read this.

Ross- I know you're not reading this because if you had you would've replied by now. No matter how mad you are at me your heart is too big to leave me hanging for as long as you have. If you read his please call me or text me. I need to know that you still care.

Ross- I definitely look pathetic now but I don't care. Emily I need you to talk to me. I've gone absolutely crazy not knowing what's going on. I need to see you and talk to you. Please give me something.

Ross- I need to know what you're thinking. If you want me to stop and be out of your life then tell me. Not knowing want you want is eating me on the inside. I need you to talk to me.

Ross- Emily I really need you to talk to me. I'm not going to stop until you answer.

Ross- I know you're ignoring me but I just wanted to say goodnight. I'll text you tomorrow.

As I was reading the last message from last night another one popped up on the screen.

Ross- I know you most likely don't care anymore but at this point I really don't care. I need to tell you that I broke up with Courtney yesterday. I didn't feel right to stay with her knowing that you're still out there somewhere. Yet again I know you're probably not interested, but we're leaving Colorado today to go back home for a few days before we have to leave for Europe. I know you won't, but I want you to come to meet us at the airport. I really want to at least say goodbye to you and see you one last time. Being without you these four days has been hell. I need to just hold you one last time. I hope you come. I don't want to leave without saying something that should've been said a long time ago. Our flight leaves at 3:45 pm. Please come.

I probably shouldn't, but I'm going. Wait what are you thinking? I can't go! He ruined you. He doesn't deserve to see you. Come on, Emily, you are better than that. I sat down on the couch. He must be crazy if he thinks I'm going to go and see him. What an idiot. He did text multiple times everyday these past four days. He also called, but how come he never came out here? If he wanted me that badly he could've just drove out here like everyone else. Would I have actually gave him my time of day? Probably not but it would've been nice to know he cares that much to try and pound down my door. Okay Emily now you're just being stupid. He obviously cares! He broke up with Courtney for Christ sakes. Wait, I'm a homewrecker! Oh my god, I feel so bad for her. Why do I care how Courtney feels? I don't know her. I want to see Ross and hold him, but at the same time he made me fall for him just so he couldn't catch me. Do I love Ross? I never really admitted it to myself, but I think I do. No I don't that's ridiculous.

~30 minutes later~

Who am I kidding, I need to see him. I need to know what he wants to tell me. I grab my phone, slip on my sneakers, and race out of my driveway. I have to hurry to the airport.