It's Too Late

Chapter 15

Emily's POV

I got home from my job interview and to be honest I probably didn't make that great of a first impression considering I didn't shower, and I had second day curls up in a pony tail that I didn't even brush out. I walked through the front door and went up to my room. My parents still weren't home. My mom texted me and told me they went out to dinner. I was invited, but I just wanted to go back to bed. I laid on top of my bed and noticed Ross' tux was still folded neatly on top of my dresser. I really screwed things up with Ross. He'll never forgive me for leaving him like I did. I should have never let things get as far as they did with Ross last night and this morning. Having sex with Ross was a major mistake.

After staring at the ceiling for an hour, I came to the conclusion that I wasn't going to sleep anytime soon. I got up and went downstairs. I haven't eaten much today, but I didn't even feel like eating anything even though my stomach was growling. I sat on the couch and turned on MTV. Awkward. my favorite show, was on. My life right now is just as complicated and confusing as Jenna Hamilton's. I know exactly how she feels. My parents walked through the door about an hour later, but they went off doing their own thing not bothering me. It was ten at night and Ridiculousness was on. I eventually fell asleep on the couch still in the jeans from my interview.

I woke up to someone pounding on the front door. I'll just let my parents get it so I laid my head back down on the couch. The person pounded on the door once again making me roll off the couch. I forgot today's Saturday so my parents are out grocery shopping. I laid on the floor hoping the person would just go away. The person still kept pounding on the door repeatedly making me get up fast just so they could shut up. The door was locked. My parents must have locked it because lord knows I never do. I opened the door only to be shoved out of the way. I saw Ross' blonde hair speed walk to the hallway. I shut the door and followed him up the stairs and into my room. He was in my room grabbing his tux.

"Here's your dad's shorts", he said tossing them to me with a bit of force. He refused to make eye contact with me.

"Ross, listen, about yesterday-", I started, but he cut me off.

"Don't speak to me. Especially about what happened yesterday", he growled. Did I really make him that upset?

"Can I least explain to you why I left?", I tried to ask, but he started walking back down the stairs.

"Nope", he said. Making his way to the door.

"Fucking asshole", I mumbled loud enough for him to hear making him stop in his tracks.

"I'm a fucking asshole? Really? Because, I'm not the one that ran away after we had sex!", he screamed turning around. I probably shouldn't have said that because Ross is really starting to scare me, but I'm not going to show it. "In those moments we had, I thought you actually might have loved me", he said shakily with tears welling up in his eyes. "I can't believe I let you in that easily. You basically used me, and it's never happening again, because I'm done with you", he cried.

"I told you I wanted to just be friends, but you pretty much forced yourself into this. Don't blame me for everything that happens between us that you don't like. I'll admit I shouldn't have left you like I did, but I had a job interview I had to make. So I'm sorry I'm such a terrible person to you, and I'm sorry that I was supposedly using you. But do not, and I mean do NOT say that when we had sex it meant nothing to me. It meant everything to me. I felt everything you felt if not even more. If you want to leave then go ahead. Do whatever makes you happy", I said trying not cry. I can't believe he would think I was using him. "and if you do leave, don't, come, back." He stood there speechless, not moving. He eventually turned around and walked out the door. I dropped to the floor and started crying. I lost him. I really lost him this time. I showered, changed into some new clothes, and decided to call someone that I know would put me in a better mood. It took three rings, but they finally answered.

"Do you want to hang out with me today?", I asked hoping he wasn't doing anything today.

"Yeah, sure, I'll be over in about ten minutes", he said. We hung up, and I sat on the couch waiting for him to show up. Exactly ten minutes later like he said there was a knock on the door.

"You do realize you don't have to knock right?", I laughed.

"Well, sorry for trying to be polite", Ryland laughed walking into my house. "So did you have anything planned?" I shook my head no. "Well, lucky for you, I did. Let's go!", he grabbed my hand and pulled me out the door. Twenty minutes later we pulled up to the mall.

"The mall? Why here?", I asked getting out of the car. "I don't think the mall is exactly fun."

"It is when you're with me little one", Ryland said draping his arm over my shoulder. I wrapped my arm around his waist, then we skipped to the entrance of the mall. Ryland and I spent the whole day running around the mall having fun. He bought a pair of swim trunks because we wanted to go swimming when we got my back to my house. Before we went back to my house, we had to get frozen yogurt. I got Cake Batter, and Ryland got Tiger's Blood. After we ate our frozen yogurt, Ryland drove us back to my house. Went swimming until my parents came home with Chinese food. Ryland stayed for dinner, then after dinner we went back out and did some night swimming talking and having fun. Ryland really did make me feel better.