Mistakes I've Made

CHAPTER 3 Rape Victims and Miscarriage

I sat next to Emily. She was biting her nails. "Em, is everything alright?" she looked at me like she was snapping out of a day dream. "I-I'm pregnant..." she had a terrified look in her eyes.

"Isn't that a good thing?"

"It would be... If the baby was Liam's." my eyes widened.

"What do you mean 'If the baby was Liam's' You cheated on him?"

"No of course not. I love Liam. He's my husband... Zayn my ex raped me." She started shaking, falling into my lap.

"Which ex?" I knew that was a stupid question, but I needed to know.

"A-arthur..." My eyes widened.

"Wait Arthur the one that was beating you. The one that Liam saved you from." It was true every word I said was true. That's one of the reasons Liam's so protective over her. She nodded. Liam came in.

"Babe I'm home." Emily looked at Liam. She ran off into their bedroom. Liam raised a worried eyebrow.

"Is she ok?" I bit my lip.

"Li, Emily was raped." He looked like he was about to fall.

"What? Is she ok? Emily baby girl come here." Liam went in the bedroom. I heard whispering, then crying. I could tell everything with them would be ok.

I sat on the couch staring at the TV. Niall came in sitting on the couch. "Soph in a mood again?" I said looking over at him.

"Yeah. Joe was bothering her. She kinda took it out on me." I winced hearing his name. I still had slight feelings for him.

"You didn't leave her alone did you?"

"Nah she's with Louis, Nick and, Harry." I nodded looking back at the screen. I felt a sharp pain but tried to ignore it. It was probably just cramps. Niall looked at me sensing something was wrong.

"Zayn you ok?" I could hear the concern in his voice.

"Yeah just some cramps." I felt another sharp pain. I held back the urge to whine.

"You want me to go get Emily? I'm sure she could find some way to help." I shook my head. Emily had been in a bad mood because she was up late studying for exams. The girl was determined to become doctor. I felt the pain again. This time more strong. I groaned.

"I'm getting Emily." I didn't object. I was in to much pain to even move. Emily came out. She got down in front of me looking me in the eye.

"Zayn, honey tell me what hurts." I pointed to my stomach. The pain started to become unbearable.

I just wanted it to stop wanted the pain to stop. I felt something wet run down my leg. I could hear Emily curse but her voice was fading. Then the world went black.

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I woke up in an unfamiliar room. The lights we're bright. I felt a weight on my hand. I looked over to see Emily sleeping. Liam in the chair next to her and the rest of the boys standing in the door way. "Guys?" I croaked. The voice I heard wasn't mine. They looked up. Niall ran out of the room probably to get the doctor. Liam shook Emily awake. She woke up alert then looked at me. I saw a pained look in her eyes.

"What happened?" I said looking at Emily.

"You don't remember do you?" She said the pain in her eyes growing.

"I remember a really bad stabbing feeling in my stomach." She bit her lip. She was about to speak but the doctor came in.

"Mr. Malik how are you feeling?"

"I wanna go home. I need to plan for the baby." I saw a look of shock in the his eyes.

"Zayn?" I looked over at Emily. "You miscarried." I looked at her.

"What?" She looked on the brink of tears.

"You lost the baby... She didn't make it." I felt like she had just punched me.

My baby.

The only being that depended on me was gone.

I never got to feel her kick.

Never got to hold her in my arms.

The room was silent. "I wanna go home." That's all I said.

I didn't want to say anything more.

I didn't want to be alive right now.

I hate myself now. Oh well I'll get over it. Comment, Vote Whatever. Bye Loves.