Mistakes I've Made

CHAPTER 4 Birthday Party

I laid on the couch, looking up at the ceiling. I was still in shock over the baby. Emily sat down. "The party's about to start." I groaned looking at her.

"I don't want to party. I want my baby." Emily frowned.

"I know sweetie." She got up extending a hand. I sat up not taking it.

"I don't want to hurt you or the baby."

"Zayn I'm two months, not nine. I'm pretty sure both of us will be ok." I gave her a half smile. She grabbed me dragging me into the kitchen.

"Happy birthday Zayn." I smiled thanking everyone. I grabbed a beer from the fridge, sitting down at the table. I saw Nick chatting with some one, but I couldn't see his face. Liam and Niall brought the cake out. Emily called a toast. I heard Liam snicker at the fact that she was holding a sprite can.

"Yo everyone shut up I'm talking." I laughed at her. "So today is Zayn's birthday. And he even came out after unfortunately losing a child." Everyone looked at me. I saw the person Nick was talking to, it was Kevin.

"What the hell do you mean he lost the baby?!" I saw Joe come from behind everyone. He walked over to me. "You lost the kid?" I nodded, he smacked me. "What the fuck did you do to lose the baby." I looked away.

"Why do you care?" he smacked me again.

"It was my kid."

"Joe stop leave him alone." Kevin pushed Joe away. Joe walked off. "Sorry about him. He's always been a dick." I smiled rubbing my cheek. "Here let me see." Kevin lightly pulled my hand away from my face. He frowned. "I don't think it will bruise. Here let me get you some ice." he went over to the freezer grabbing an ice pack and handing it to me. I thanked him, watching him go back over to Nick. Emily came over pouting. "What's wrong love?" she sighed.

"Nothing. You know Zayn I know what it's like to lose a child before you ever got to their smiling face." I looked at her in shock. She brought her knees to her chest.

"His name was Andrew. He was mine and Arthur's. Well Arthur thought that I had cheated on him. And that's when the beatings started. I of course lost Andrew." The room was silent when she finished. She looked up frowning and walking off. Liam followed closely behind her.

The room started to pick up noise again.

Louis and Harry came over to me. "Come on Zayn. Me, Harry, Nick, and Kevin are taking you drinking." I set my now empty bottle on the table, leaving with the four. Harry pretty much already seemed drunk. He was giggling like an idiot. "Harry stop you're starting to sound like a teenage girl."

"I do not sound like Emily."

"Emily is the same age as you Haz." Harry rolled his eyes.

We got to the pub. Harry was jumping up and down. "Calm down Harry. You're acting like you've never been to a bar before." Nick said sitting on a stool. Louis laughed.

"I may have given him a monster." I looked at him.

"You did what?"

"Yeah he was a bit tired this morning." I shook my head.

"Yo Brandon! Five beers over here." Kevin called to the bartender. Kevin handed me one winking, I blushed.

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Ten beers later, I could barely see straight. Harry, Nick and Lou had left. Leaving me with Kevin. "Zayn, I think it's time to get home."

"Fine give me the keys you're to drunk to drive."

"I don't have the damn keys." I giggled, looking at him.

"You know you're pretty cute." Kevin smirked. He pushed me against the wall. I looked him in the eyes. They were filled with lust. He captured my lips. The kiss started out rough, but soon sweetened. He pulled away setting his forehead on mine. "C'mon there's a room in the back we can use." He pulled me into the back. We went into a room. It looked like a bedroom that would be in an apartment. "Here lay down on the bed." I was to drunk to know what was going on. He gave me a loving smile.

*WARNING SEXY TIME DON'T LIKE DON'T READ*

He pulled off his shirt, tossing it on the floor. He laid next to me, kissing me again. This time the kiss was more heated. I pulled my shirt off then kissed him again.

He played with the buttons of my jeans. I nodded letting him slide them off. He took off his as well grabbing his boxers also. I could see his whole body. He sat on top of me, kissing his way down to where he was at the elastic of my boxers. He pulled the down then came back to my face, kissing me again.

I felt his fingers slowly enter me. I whined and stayed still he slowly pumped his fingers in and out of me. I moaned loudly and saw him smirk. He added another finger and I froze again.

"You OK?" he asked concern in his voice. I nodded and let him continue. He took out his fingers leaving me feeling empty. He kissed me again. I then felt him enter , causing me to whine in the kiss. "I'm sorry babe." he whispered in to my ear. I soon adjust signaling him to go. He slammed into me. I moaned out his name. He went faster hitting my prostate every time.

(A.N. Ha when I typed prostate in my phone it came out as prostitute.)

"K-kevin go faster please." He did what I said. I felt my stomach go into knots. Kevin hit me again. I felt him fill me up causing me to realise. He pulled out panting.

*IT'S OK TO READ NOW*

He pulled the duvet down. Climbing into bed next to me. I gave him one last kiss before laying my head on his chest and falling asleep.

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I woke up much sober. Kevin wasn't next to me. I frowned. "Morning babe." I looked up to see Kevin picking up my shirt, handing it to me. He sat on the bed, kissing me cheek. I looked at him on shook. "You ok sweetie?"

"You aren't mad?"

"No of course not." He looked at me confused.

"Really?"

"Yeah babe. Why would I be mad?" I looked away.

"Because we had sex... And we were drunk."

"So, to be honest, I think you're kinda cute." I blushed looking away. I got up putting my cloths back on. "I called Nick, he'll be here soon."

"Y-you didn't tell him what happened? Did you?"

"No that my dear," he pushed me on the bed. "is our little secret." he kissed me. I giggled. "Zayn, I was wondering if you would... Maybe be my boyfriend..." I blushed nodding I was finally getting into a relationship that wasn't forced. He leaned down kissing me. The door opened, causing Kevin to pull away. Brandon stood in the door way laughing.

"Nick's here but I'll just leave you two alone. You were pretty loud last night." I blushed hiding my face in Kevin's chest.

"Brandon stop. You're embarrassing Z-Z." I blushed darker at his nickname for me. He pulled me out of the room, a light blush growing on his cheeks. "Come on." he intertwined his fingers with mine. We found Nick leaning on the counter.

"What happened between you two?"

"Nothing." we said at the same time bushing.