Superficial Love

Chapter 12

What you about to read is kinda just a re-cap of what's happened that past few months in deans pov

Things seemed to going by so damn fast. Cas and I were so happy and practically everyone in town knows about us. Nobody judges us, and if we find someone who does, there are plenty of people who would take care of it including me. I'm surprised at how much support everyone at our school gives us since it's such a small town. I'd think there would be at least a group of people who would hate us for what we do. I'm just happy that there aren't any people like that around me and Cas. I've taken him to the most cliché places like the movies many times already and he thinks I'm being a cheap fuck, his words exactly, but I'm just trying to build up to when I take him somewhere really nice. I want to watch his face light up when I tell him were not gonna see the same damn movie for the 3rd time.

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~Cas~

I watched as the familiar surroundings of my house engulfed my eyes, and the impala came to a smooth stop on the curbside. Dean put the car in park, and pulled the keys out of the ignition. I made a gesture to pull the door handle open and step outside when a hand caught my thigh. I turned, alittle startled to see Dean with his head straight ahead like he was accepting the fate of a car coming straight towards us. He kept his hand on my thigh, his grip alittle more loose.

"Dean?"

Silence was all that filled the cold air, and I started to become worried with his unresponsiveness. The lights in my house were completely off because my family was gone for the weekend, but the lights from the house across the way were glistening off his glossy green eyes.

"Dean what's wrong?"

I reached to touch his jaw, my fingers lightly pulling his face so he was finally looking at me.

"Dean, babe, are you ok?"

His response was barley even a whisper, and Even in the silent car I had to tune in quite hard.

"I'm scared Cas-"

His beautiful green eyes started tearing up, while he sort of nuzzled Into my hand

"I'm scared that I'm gonna lose you to someone better than me, Smarter than me, more loving than me, more well rounded, someone who will treat you better than me."

He blinked, a tear rolling down his cheek which I gently wiped away with my thumb that was still resting on his jaw.

"You know things happen to the best people, and I can't-"

Another tear came from his eye, and soon more came.

"I can't lose you Castiel. Besides Sammy, your the most important thing in my life and if I lose you, I will lose myself."

His sudden seriousness caught me way off guard and knowing he was thinking about these things made me want to cry with him. But I had to stay strong and reassuring for him because this was obviously a sore spot for him.
I leaned in closer than I already was and kissed him every so lightly on the tip of his nose. He closed his eyes to take in the feel, and as He was about to speak again but I put my finger on his lips to stop him.

"I'm not leaving you Dean. I love you, and I will never find anyone who could or would replace you. Your all that I want, and your all that I need and leaving you would mean leaving myself too."