The suicide note from her!

love me don't hate me

Reagan POV 

See the thing about love is the fact that nobody can escape someone who was made for them. that is what my dear mate needed to understand she may think about death and hate me right now but in time I am sure that she will start to love me the way that I love her she has to she just has too.

I wont live without her. That's a promise.

I can't I just cant stand by and watch her walk away from me again, not again. It was hell when she walked away the last time my wolf lost control it hurt many rouges not enough to kill them but enough to cause them pain. when she first left it was weird it was like my wolf was howling while I slipped into a deep, deep sleep.

When my eyes fully shut their was a light I followed it until it lead to a meadow with bright flowers and green trees surrounded by grass. A freshly cut grass smell reached my nose and I inhaled it I walked to the centre  and sat down thinking about how much of a mess my life was.

My mate hates me, my dad left me, and my mum died in childbirth when I was 5, my little sister Sasha blames herself everyday for the loss of both mum and dad she's  11 and she suffers from depression and anxiety. The half of this is my fault, the other half is my fathers. I hate him, its his fault all of this except my mothers death in childbirth, I love Sasha she was my world until Emery came into it and that's when my whole life was turned upside down.

That she wolf comes with a twist in the tale, Why oh why couldn't my father dearest have left their family alone they did nothing to us nothing what's so ever. I want to make a family a family in which I wont make the same mistakes my father made, I make that promise, to myself, to Emery, to my future family that I will soon create and I want to have daughters and I want a son and most of all i want my mate to be as happy as she can ever possibly be.

I will make this all up to her, I know it wont account for her mother but i can at least try. if she will let me that is of course.

Emery's Pov

After I ran from him I felt light headed I dropped onto the bed and the next thing i felt was someone picking me up and taking me towards the door. I awoke in a strong pair of arms and i tried to wiggle out of them but the grip on me only tightened I saw about 30 - 40 men surrounding us and I let out a growl and a snarl came my way I didn't have to be told that I was in my mates arms because I could feel the tingles all over my body making princess purr inside of me.

eventually we arrived at one of the largest mansions ever i knew it wasn't the pack house because it was quieter and looked more secure it looked like it had been built to keep people locked in and people locked out,  to be specific it looked like it was built for well me!.

once we got their he took me to a blue room it had a bed walk in wardrobe a huge bathroom and its own private training centre he put me down and then spoke "so this is your new room I hope you like it because it doesn't look like you will be leaving it any time soon by the way can I mark you?". I looked at him in shock he thought I wanted to be here I was serious when I rejected him and now he wants to mark me is he fucking kidding me.

"no" the answer was simple and no catches with it but he thought other wise and came forward towards me and I backed up against the wall and left kisses all the way up along my neck any other day if it was not for the fact that he forced it upon her she would have felt pleasure but she felt nothing but disgust. It felt like hours even though it was only about a few minutes after a while she felt his teeth elongate against her neck and he sunk them into her she screamed in agony you was amen't to feel pleasure after a while but hat never happened.

Reagan's POV

after i forcefully marked her I felt terrible I didn't mean to cause her pain and she sunk down to the floor shaking and tears streaming down her face. It was like she sunk into her own world where she couldn't talk she couldn't do anything she flinched away when I tried to touch her and then I felt terrible, I felt helpless, and like I didn't deserve to live I knew at that moment that what I was feeling was all of her emotions and her thoughts rushing through her head and her.

maybe I should have let her run from me maybe she did deserve better but I must not think like that she's my mate and I was hers either way she is stuck with me forever and always. I will always love her and never leave her side not ever. I want to make them vows I want her to say till death do us part and in sickness and in health and she will say them vows one day at least, even if i have to make her she will marry me and i will give her no choice in anything that i should have greater power in she will only have power in carrying my pups and cleaning nothing less and nothing more and i am not sexist.

Erica xx