Protection {Louis Tomlinson} // Book 1

Chapter 13: Hate & Love

Dakota's POV

I woke up next to Louis.

my decision was still uknown.

and my question still un answered.

i know it was stupid how i asked Louis to stay with me during this decision.

but since i've been with him,

i know what it's like to not be alone.

and i like the feeling to know someone cares about me.

i'm becoming a diffrent person each day.

i can't describe it.

sometimes i'm glad my past happened, if it hadn't i wouldn't have met Louis or Harry or Caroline.

other times i still despise my past.

with your mother dead and your father probably still drunk out of his mind, it's nice to have a shoulder to cry on.

only Louis wasn't my shoulder to cry on.

and neither was Harry.

it was Caroline.

even though it's been about a week and a half she still calls to check up on me.

I keep thinking to when i might tell Louis.

sometimes i plan to tell him, but something just pops up or i forget.

i try to forget.

when i was alone i could never forget.

but when me and Louis started dating,  and Caroline and i started being really good friends, and i told her, everything changed.

and Harry. he was a good friend. it was weird with us. we don't make eye contact. or at least when Louis' around.

when he's not around, me and Harry joke and laugh and talk.

which just makes things harder.

i love them both for diffrent reasons.

and hate them both for diffrent reasons.

hate: i hated how Louis was mean to any guy that would just look at me, i didn't like how he was over protective, and most of all i hated how mean he was to Harry.

i hated how Harry came out and told me he liked me when i was dating Louis and how he asked me out.

love: i love how Louis wouldn't give up on me. it was annoying at the time, but then i realized he did it because he cared.  even tho it was annoying i sometimes liked it when he protected me. he was like my protection.

i loved how Harry was nice to me for a long time. even tho he started flirting with me which was weird, later i found it cute.

i like how he thinks he's looking out for me. he really isn't but i do find it sweet.

i hate more stuff about Louis then Harry.

does that mean i chose Harry then?

still unknown.

it might make my answer a little more clear.

Harry's POV

I finally talked to Dakota.

i told her what was on my mind.

i didn't tell her about what Louis did tho.

i was about to, but it just didn't come out.