Falling... Hard (girlxgirl)

Chapter 2

Alex's POV

I started a new school 4 weeks ago, my family and I had to move because my mom got a new job in Florida so we up and moved here, to Tampa. I hate it, everyone hates me because of how I dress. This kid Josh yells at me really loudly at lunch and everyone stares. I hate this school so much.

There's also this girl, I think her name is Kay, she's really pretty and does cheerleading but is also very smart. She's really sweet, she looks at me during lunch while Josh is yelling. But it's a different look, she's not laughing, she looks kind of sympathetic. I'm probably just seeing things though. I really like her but, she's probably straight. The boys are all over her and its disgusting, they're always catcalling her and telling her to show some skin. Boys disgust me, I'm happy I'm gay.

Some people know I'm gay, only people I trust. I've told my best friend Eddie, my ex-best friend Samantha, and my other best friend Gabe. I'm too scared to tell my family. I know they all would accept me, well, my dad wouldn't he's a homophobic and racist asshole.

The only thing worse than school is my dad. He's a terrible dad, husband, and just a terrible person in general. All he does all day is just yell at everyone because "life sucks". Then when my mom politely asks for him to quiet down he starts yelling at her, that's when it gets worse. Without him my family would be perfectly happy. I cry all of the time because of him, people always say that I'm lucky to have my parents together but they don't understand. If my parents got divorced, it would be the happiest day of my life.

I had a boyfriend before, and that helped me realize I was gay. He was a sweet guy but he just wasn't my type. His name was jack and he was my first kiss. It was fine, he didn't do anything wrong, I just didn't feel anything ya know? I was 11, I know, I'm not proud. I now I realize that I was way too young.

I really want a girlfriend, I'm 17 and no one knows I'm gay, I don't really care if they know I just feel like its none of their business. Like I said, Kay is really pretty and smart and everything, but perfect girls are never gay. People really need to have like a sign on them that says if their gay or not, everything would be so much simpler.