Falling... Hard (girlxgirl)

Chapter 13

Kay's POV

I really didn't want Alex to leave, but she had school to attend to. I never thought that another girl would make me feel this way ever again.

When I was 14 years old, I had a girlfriend. I was young and stupid. My parents said I couldn't have a boyfriend, so I got a girlfriend. Her name was Taylor. She was beautiful, funny, smart, and a great person. We dated for about six months and everything was going great. No one knew about us, not my family or even my best friend. Since everyone assumes their kids are straight, I got to have sleepovers with her and no one would get suspicious. We never had sex, I was smart enough to realize I was too young for that.

One night, at around midnight, me and her are having a sleepover. She rolls over to see my face and asks me a question.

"Is this normal? You know, girls dating other girls." Neither of us were educated on the topic. I never even thought about it until then, I assumed that people did it all the time and no one thought it was weird. I didn't even know there was a word for this.

"Of course it is. If it wasn't, it would be illegal." Again, I wasn't educated on the topic, and I didn't know that gay marriage actually was illegal.

I pecked her on the lips, she smiled and kissed me back. The kiss got more heated. We continued to kiss for two minutes when my mom opened the door. The door was very quiet and no lights were on, so I didn't notice until she turned on the light and gasped. I quickly turned to face my mom and was terrified. I knew at that moment that I was going to be grounded, for life.

My mom ran out of the door and went to her bedroom. After a minute, she came back with my dad. He had a horrified expression on his face, so I assumed that she told him what happened.

"Your mom tells me that you two were kissing. Do you's think that it's normal for two girls to kiss? Its disgusting. I told you no boyfriends, that doesn't mean you turn into a faggot and go kissing girls. It's not natural, I'm ashamed of you." I didn't know what a "faggot" was, I was very confused.

Apparently Taylor knew exactly what that meant because she stormed out of the house. I tried to go after her, but my dad pushed me back down, hard. I immediately started crying. My parents left the room and I tried calling and texting Taylor, it was no use.

On Monday I tried to talk to her, but she ignored me. She was in my fourth period class and she went to the bathroom, I went too. I wanted to talk to her, to see what was going on. She got in the bathroom and a minute later, I came in.

"Taylor, why are you ignoring me?"

"Don't you see? Girls aren't meant to be together. Didn't you hear what your dad said? Its disgusting and unnatural, what we did was gross. No one can know about what we did. I don't want to talk to you ever again. Goodbye Kayla, forever." She left and I just fell on the floor, balling my eyes out.

I still remember that conversation. It was the moment that made me repress all of my feelings towards girls. I thought it was unnatural. A year later, I started dating josh just to please my parents. He was a great guy, but I wasn't happy with him.

Then this year, Alex comes along and gets me showing my gay side. Since the first day of school when she came here, I noticed something was different.

I started watching a lot of gay YouTubers, and I watched their coming out videos. They made me realize that being gay isn't wrong, that people are just jerks. I decided that I wasn't going to repress my feelings anymore. That's when I made my move on Alex. I could tell she liked me, it was way too obvious.

I think that Alex could change my life and make me a happier person. I don't care what anyone thinks. If people judge me for it, then they aren't getting any cookies when the holidays come around (I hand out cookies to the whole school every Christmas). My parents aren't going to like it, but I really don't care.