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Chapter 6

'Well Sarah I kind of cheated on you before we went to the beach." Jordan says now looking down at his feet. I crossed my arms and looked straight at him.

"Its okay." I said firmly staying in the position.

"What?" Jordan said looking at me confused.

"I said its okay." I said repeating what I had just said.

"It is? Your not gonna beat my ass or anything?" Jordan said completely shocked.

"Yea, I already found this out. And I'm not mad because I got revenge." I said smirking at him.

"How?" Jordan asked a little concerned.

"I cheated back." I said.

He seemed kind of shocked.

"With who?" He finally or replied.

"Matthew Lee Espinosa." I said closing the door and walking back towards the door.

"You can come back out now Matt." I said sitting on my bed.

No response.

"Matt I said you can come out." I said again.

Still no response.

"Matthew come out." I said now walking towards the bathroom door.

"Matt?" I said looking in the shower.

No Matt.

I looked in the closet where I keep the towels and hygienic things.

No Matt.

I felt someone hugging me from the back and I let out a small scream then turned around and smacked the person in the face.

It turned out to be Matt holding his left cheek.

"Feisty aren't ya? Nice." Matt said laughing.

I held my hand to my heart.

"You little shit you gave my heart attack!"I said walking towards my bed.

"Sowwy" Matt said pouting a little.

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Me and my best friends Julie and Maggie are going shopping today.

We went into Hot Topic and I got a new Pierce The Viel shirt (❤) and a Sleeping With Sirens shirt().

Im not really that girly type. I only shop at Rue21 , Spencers, Hot Topic, Journeys, and Forever 21

"Oh my gosh look at those vans!!!" I said walking into journeys.

I bough them since they were on sale. They're black and coral.

We walked into the food court and sat down to eat.

"So how are you and Jordan?" Julie asks.

"Well ummm he cheated on me." I said and I feel tears forming.

Why am I crying I don't need a dickhead in my life.

"I so sorry Sarah." Julie said noticing my tears.

I wiped them off quickly.

"I'm fine I don't why I'm crying I don't need him." I said trying to convince her.

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There I sat in my house alone on my bed.

A razor in my hand.

I just sat there watching it. I threw it at the wall and obviously it broke.

Why am I acting like this over a guy?.

Well maybe because I gave this guy 3 fucking years of my life and he throws it all away by kissing another guy.

I walked towards the broken razor and picked up the blade.

I walled back towards my bed.

I'm just so heart broken....

One slice for my heart.

One more for Jordan.

One more for being this way.

One more for love hurting me.

One more for the 3 years wasted.

One more for doing this.

I look at my 6 new slices. They hurted like hell since it's my first time. But it felt so good once it tighten and bled.

I heard a knock on my front door.

I walked downstairs and opened it lowering my sweater sleeve.
I see Jordan standing there with red eyes.I can tell he's been crying.

I let out a whimper.

"What do you want?". I asked not wanting him here.

"I'm sorry Sarah" Jordan whispers his voice cracking.

I walked towards him and gave him a pecked on the lips.

"So am I for wasting 3 years. 3 fucking years Jordan." I say calmly and with that I walked back in and shut the door heading towards my room.

I sat there and cry.

Feeling horrible.

Am I really that horrible? Am I not good enough for him? Am I not lovable?......

I fell asleep eventually crying in my sleep.

What happen to me?

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Short chapter but here you go my loves.

Love you guys!!!

Just to let you guys on a secret this basically is based on my life but I'm calming down on cutting and I know I'm going to sound like a hypocrite but..... Don't cut over a guy. Its not worth it.

Love you guys!!!

-the_wisegirl

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