You Are My Dream

33

Two days later

I woke up in a panic again and I immediately got up and walked over to him.

I stood next to his bed and held his hand tightly. "I guess I don't get a 'good morning gorgeous' this time do I?" I tried to laugh to myself but it came out in a cry.

"Damn it, I love you. I love you more than anything in the world. If I could've done anything to stop this from happening I would've done everything in my power to stop it from happening. I know we take a lot of things for granted. But once something tragic happens it opens our eyes. I hate fighting with you and of course the last conversation we had was an argument. This has showed me yet again, how lucky I am to have you in my life. You mean the world to me and I honestly have no clue what I would do without you, Justin. Words can not describe the way that I feel about you. But it's the best feeling in the world when you look into my eyes and tell me that you love me. You can put me in the best mood by not even doing anything. I need you, Justin. I need you, I love you so much." I sobbed out.

I roughly ran my fingers through my hair and cried. "Damn it! Why did the fuck did this have to happen to you? It should've been me!"

I started to hyperventilate I was getting so upset. I sunk to the floor and brought my knees to my chest and I heard someone come into the room.

"Olivia?" I heard a guys voice.

I looked up and saw Alfredo squatted on the floor next to me. I flung my arms around him and he hugged me tight while I sobbed into his chest.

"Shhh, it's okay." He tried to comfort me.

"Why did this have to happen to him damn it?" I asked.

"I don't know, but it's so horrible. There isn't anything that anyone could do. I'm so sorry." He said and hugged me.

"I need him! I need him!" I yelled into his chest and sobbed while punching him.

"Hey, hey." Alfredo said and took my hands and placed them on my sides.

"I'm sorry." I cried out. "I didn't mean to, I'm so sorry."

"It's ok, I understand you're upset. But he will be alright, I promise." He said and walked me over to a chair and made me sit down.

"I'm so scared for him." I sniffled.

"I know, but he wouldn't dare leave any of us. Especially you, he loves you too much to leave you. He will recover and things will slowly start to get back to normal and it will all be alright." He said.

I heard a knock on the door and the nurse came in. "I need to do some tests, could you please wait right outside for a few minutes?"

"Yea, of course. What ever you need to do." Alfredo said and walked me out into the hallway.

About ten minutes had passed and I hadn't stopped pacing the entire time.

"Is she almost done?" I said impatiently.

"Olivia, we have to be patient she's just trying to help him recover."

I saw Pattie, Scooter, Allison, Dan, Scrappy, and Nick walking towards us.

They all had tears in their eyes and I was still crying just as hard as before.

"How're you holding up?" Dan said and gave me a hug.

"I'm hanging in there." I wiped the tears out of my eyes.

"Hey, kid he'll be alright don't worry." Scrappy said and I gave him a hug.

Allison hugged me really tight and said, "Olivia, honey it's going to be okay. It's going to be alright."

"I'm trying to think positive but it's just hard." I sniffled.

"I know, I understand."

"Anything new?" Scooter asked and gave me a hug.

"The nurse is in there now." I said.

About five minutes later I saw Alyson and Corrine getting off of the elevator.

They ran over to me and both hugged me at the same time.

"I'm so sorry." Alyson said but it was muffled because we were still hugging.

"I can't believe this happened." Corrine sighed.

"He hasn't done anything wrong to deserve this, I don't, I just don't understand." I sobbed into their shoulders.

All three of us were hugging and crying and I eventually pulled away.

"Where are your boys?" I asked.

"Harry had to fly back to London for work, but I'm glad I stayed here so I could comfort you." Alyson said and slightly smiled.

"Jay and I were in New Jersey for his tour, I flew back as soon as I could." Corrine said.

The nurse poked her head out of the door. "Can I have someone really close to him come in?"

I gestured to Pattie for her to go in.

"No, sweetheart you go." She shook her head.

"Can we both come?" I asked the nurse.

She sighed "Yes, you both can come."

We went into the room and each of us held one of his hands.

"I'll give you some alone time." The nurse said and walked out of the room.

"Justin, sweetheart it's mom, I love you." Pattie said and touched his hair.

"I remember holding you in my arms for the first time and being so filled with joy when I saw your face. You were all mine, you were my baby boy." She started to cry.

"And when I saw all of those people standing around watching you sing, it made me so proud. I knew you were going to be something big. Then, when I saw you record your first song I was so proud. I saw you preform on stage and I couldn't have been prouder. I'm still so beyond proud of you and I know you will continue to do amazing things. You'll always be my little boy." She was crying and kissed him on the forehead.

"And someday, I'll see you up at the alter with Olivia and holding your own children." She smiled and squeezed his hand.

I was crying and holding Justin's hand gently.

"Now, I will leave you alone to talk to him." She said and walked out of the room.

"Justin, baby I love you so much. I know you're going to be okay, but this is so hard. If there was anything I would've been able to do to keep you from getting hurt I would've. I need you, you make me so happy and I can't even picture my life without you. I love you." I kissed his hand and laid my head on his bed.