I haven't been feeling so well, I'm sorry.
I'll admit, I lied to you.
I'm a liar.
But I promise I have good reasoning.
You see here,
My mind is ill again
I find myself staring at walls
I talk to myself
I'm starting to feel sad
I think my heart is ill as well
I get this tightness in my chest
My heart will beat so fast
I think my eyes are ill too
Sometimes tears won't stop flowing out
My mother told me it's because I'm crazy
My doctor said it's because I'm depressed and extremely anxious
But I promise you I'm not crazy
I just don't feel so well
I may be unwell again
But I told you that I'm doing moderately well.
Why?
I know you really don't care.
I know the truth.
So please,
I'm unwell because I still love you.
I'm unwell because you don't love me.
I'm unwell because I'm stressed.
I'm unwell because of my mother.
I'm unwell because of everything that is.
My doctor got sick of my mind's chronic illness,
So he told me that I'm crazy.
My mother always said I was crazy.
My "friends" told me that I'm crazy.
But I tell myself that I'm unwell.
Just so I can make it through each day.
I'm sorry I lied.
But that's part of being unwell.
I'm sure you're doing well.
And I know I seem crazy
But I promise I'm just a little unwell.
I know these tears look sad
I know my shaking looks crazy
I know these scars and cuts look like they hurt
But they temporarily make me feel better.
I'm just a little unwell.
I'm just unwell.
I can get through today
Because soon I'll be well.
My mind, eyes, and heart won't be sick.
