First Sight

Chapter 18

After I told him I loved him I realized that it was true. I had been denying it for a while now. Mainly because it felt like it was to soon for me to love him. I mean I had only known him for about a month or so ,but it felt like we had known each other our whole lives.
I loved him. I loved how when he smiled his eyes would light up like he was in on a secret that only him and I knew.
I loved how when we argued even though we were fighting deep down I knew that we would be fine. There isn't enough time to explain why I love him. Because really I loved everything about him.
As he was still lying on top of me, all of this went through my mind. As he was staring at me with his piercing eyes ,the eyes I loved, I decided to do something that I would've never have done before. I put my arms around his neck and kissed him. This kiss was different than all the others we had ever shared. There's no way to actually explain it.
We quickened the pace of the kiss as we started getting even more breathless than before. Just as I was about to flip us over Lucas sat up and took me with him. Never breaking the kiss. As he sat up he then stood up keeping my legs firmly wrapped around his waist.
"Everything I seem to do is never enough. I always want more. What is it about you that makes me want you so bad?" Lucas groaned. He had now pressed me firmly against the wall. His hands traveling all over my body making me feel shivers of pleasure.
In the back of my mind I knew that I should stop because I knew I wasn't ready for this yet. I wanted him a lot ,but I was surely not ready to do the deed. But the more adventurous side of my brain was beating my more rational side. Mainly because it was the one who was getting most of the pleasure.
After a few moments of me fighting for control I finally got the strength to speak.
" Lucas." I croaked. His lips had traveled halfway down my chest by now his hands starting to wander even farther. He hadn't seemed to hear me.
"Lucas." I said again more forceful this time and it seemed to work because this time he at least answered.
"Yeah?" He replied his voice really hoarse. Holy crap what was he doing to me.
"We need to stop before it is to late. And it's killing me to tell you this because I really want you right now but if you don't leave I'm going to have to push you out the window." I said.
After I completed my rant I looked up and Lucas was smiling at me.
"What?" I asked.
"Push me out the window?" He asked. Trying not to laugh.
"Yes. I will. Now go." I said. Starting to go closer to him so he'd get the point.
"Okay but one last thing." Lucas said. Before I could reply he leaned forward and gave me a very soft kiss. So soft I barely felt it.
"I love you ,Bella." He said softly.
Then within seconds he was gone.
What was this boy doing to me?