The last thing I wanted to here was "I never loved you".
But it was heard eventually.
There are times where I'm glad it was said. If i never knew the truth, I would've never moved on. And then, there are moments where I breakdown and cry to myself.
He never loved me for who I was. He would never love me. Ever.
Pretending. That's all it was. Just lies.
Ever heard the saying "Guys fall in love with what they see, Girls fall in love with what they hear- That's why girls wear make up, and why guys lie."
Well....it was true. At least for him.
I finally realized it. He wasn't in love with me. He just liked what he saw, and took advantage of me.
And when I finally thought I had my wall built up around my heart & soul, he comes along and tears it all down.
Why am I afraid now? Because of him. Why do i feel insecure? Because of a foolish teenage boys shenanigans. Why do I want to leave this world? Because if one boy did that to me, surely million more will too.
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