Fallen Alone-Andley

True Friends Stab You In The Front

Ashley's PoV
Waking up the next morning was terrible, I had a head ache from crying myself to sleep last night and my face felt disgusting from my tears, also add to that that I remembered everything of yesterday and now had to face the rest of the band.

Sitting up in my bunk I could feel tears began to well up in my eyes again but refused to let them fall, I've done enough crying time to take action. I really was afraid that they would replace me, I remember the first night when Andy introduced him, when I disappeared I heard some of what they were saying, they had asking if he played any instruments and he replied with; guitar, piano, sings and he plays bass.

What if this is just there way of replacing me? They would tell me right? It would be very simple all they need to do is tell me to pack my bags and go but what, oh my god I need to stop thinking, thinking causes pain and pain causes scars, and I promised Jinxx no more scars.

I cannot help the painful thoughts that fly across my mind, I can't take it any longer. Pulling back my curtain I jump down to land on the floor softly trying to keep quiet so everyone stays asleep as I carry on towards Jinxxs' bunk.

"Jinxx" I whispered hoping he's awake so I don't wake him, thankfully he is, pulling open the curtain he sees me standing there, tears pouring from my eyes,

"hey bud, what's wrong?" he smiled kindly at me, reassuring me that it was okay, that I was safe to talk with him.

"I can't stop thinking." I whimpered through a fresh wave of tears as I crawled into the bunk beside him, he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me to his chest.

"thinking about what hun?" he asked softly, making me smile, this is one of the reasons why I loved having Jinxx as a friend, he always calls me pet names but means nothing by them except to be as a way of offering comfort.

"Different scenarios. Like your all against me and are gonna leave me and kick me out of the band and I'll have nowhere to go and I'll be homeless again and-" I ranted breathlessly till Jinxx cut me off.

"Shh...stop. You'll be okay. Nobody's kicking anybody out. All you have to do is how out there and apologize," he said, he looked like he wanted to add more but waited a few moments before doing so, "As for a home, I don't know how that'll work since you live with Andy and he said something about Cobolt moving in." he said sadly.

Well fuck me, I do live with Andy and it's his name on the lease and after yesterday he's definitely not gonna want me there anymore, we only have a week left on tour before we're back home, then we're in the studio recording our fourth album.

"I'll apologize, but I don't want to say why cause it's stupid." I said, I can't explain because just stupid and I'm probably completely over thinking the situation.

"Your reasons aren't stupid if they're valid, which they are, and I understand why you feel like that and I'm going to do everything in my power to change that." he told me, giving me a sad smile along with it.

"Thanks Jinxx, your always there when I need you." I say leaning in for another hug,

"And I always will be" he said returning the hug before we got out of the bunk and made our way towards the living area.

We must of been in Jinxx's bunk for about an hour and when we got through to the living area everyone was up and about in various sections of the front of the bus, all attention was turned to me as we entered, Andy was glaring at me and you could see that he so wanted to get up and beat me but refrained from doing so.

"I-I'm sorry for what happened yesterday." I stuttered, stumbling over my words, unsure of what to say. Nobody said a word for a few minutes, they all just stared at me with hatred, probably imagining the funniest way to kill me.

"Why did you do it?" CC asked, narrowing his eyes at me. I only shook my head, I couldn't responds, my throat was dry and tight.
"Tell us why or leave." He said, it wasn't much of an ultimatum, I couldn't explain so my only option was to leave.

Turning my back towards everyone to retreat back to the bunk room, Jinxx takes hold of my arm to keep me in place before speaking out,

"Come on guys, let's not do anything irrational here."  He spoke calmly, ha your probably the only calm one here,

"Well he should have thought that before he goddamn punched me," Cobolt all but screamed at me, well I'm sorry you cunt but my fist is attracted to dickheads.

"Sorry Jinxx, but he's out." Jake added, at least now I know that everyone on this tour bus hates me, except Jinxx anyway.

"At least let him finish the tour," Jinxx bargained, he was almost pleading, I don't know why he's trying so hard for someone like me, "We only have a week left, we can re-discuss this once we're home." He finished, I liked that idea, well except the part that this is going to be my last week in Black Veil Brides.

"Fine, but if we still don't have an answer by the end of the week he's out." Andy ended the conversation, his voice harsh and gruff, I almost burst into tears and spilled everything from the hate he had for me but I couldn't let that happen.

I have one week to fix all this, but it's not gonna be easy.

An//Is it weird that I finished chapter 6 before I finished chapter 4 when I haven't even started chapter 5??
Yes. Oh well.
Title- Bring Me The Horizon-True Friends
-Scarz 💙