Change Your Mind (n.h)

Chapter 21

     *****Oh my gosh!!! I am so sorry I haven't updated in like forever!! We had this really bad storm like a week ago and the lightening like hit our phones and Internet so... So our new Internet box didn't come till yesterday and didn't get set up until late last night. Okay, so now, I just want to say thank-you all so much!! I now have over 300 reads, so when I saw it, I just died!! Agh!! Okay, so thank-you and I love you all so much!! Okay so here's my update, hope it doesn't suck like I'm afraid it's going to. So yeah, I think this is very well deserved! I love you and here you go!!!!!*****

*Just to refresh your memory ('Cuz you know it's been like forever)*

     "Yeah. And guys, I'm fine. You all go back over to your homes for Christmas, don't stay here for me." I turned to the guys.

     "I don't know. We want to be here with you." Louis spoke up.

     "No, go home, please, for me." I got up out of bed, trying to keep the hospital gown closed in the back. I went over and gave them all a hug and a kiss. "I love you guys."

     "We love you too." Niall said softly.

     "We better get going if we're going home. We have to catch the plane. We'll see her in a little bit." Liam said with tears in his eyes. 

     "No, don't you dare start that." I said as the tears started to flow again.

     They said their final goodbyes and left. Kelsey and Cher came over and gave me a hug and left shortly there after. I got dressed in some normal clothes and me and mom went home. Dad was waiting on the couch. He got up and gave me a huge hug, I guess mom had already filled him in on what had happened. I told them I wanted to go upstairs to bed and they didn't object. I walked upstairs and just lied down on the bed. I lied there and thought, thought about what all had just happened in the past 48 hours. I began to cry once again and finally realized how lonely I was. Brian called me three times, I ignored them. I cried myself to sleep that night. 

*New Update!*

     Saturday I spent the day in bed. I lied there and got up only to take a shower and pee. I turned off my phone and just stared up at the ceiling. Eventually I got out my iPod and listened to some music, but when Kiss Me started to play, I lost it. I screamed and cried. It was a good thing mom and dad both had to go to work that day. They called the house frequently to check in on me. I answered but really didn't want to. They told me I should go over to Kelsey's and hang out, get my mind off of things. I told them I didn't feel like it. Kelsey called and asked if I needed anything, I just told her no. She understood that I didn't want to be bothered. 

      Sunday I got up early to get a shower. I wanted to go to church, being there and studying His Word made me feel better. But then I realized, he would be there, he would just bug me, and wouldn't leave me alone. I told mom and dad that I didn't feel well and would just do my own little devotion. They didn't fight me, I guess they knew he'd be there. They left and I turned to The Proverbs. It's my go-to book in the Bible when I need wisdom. About an hour into my study, I heard a knock on the door. I got up to answer the door.

     "Hey, how ya doing?" It was Ryan. "I told your parents I wanted to come and visit you, see how you were doing." He winked as I ushered him in. We sat down on the couch.

     "So how have you really been? Don't lie to me either." He said as he grabbed my hand.

     "I've been okay I guess. I pretty much stayed in bed all day yesterday and so... He's called me a bunch but, I just didn't want to answer. Mom and dad have been good to not really bother me. They check in on me, they care and are worried but... Anyway, thanks for coming and seeing me." I gave him a weak smile.