Chapter 28

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by Cliffoconda95

by Cliffoconda95

*Renee's POV*

"Renee, Merry Christmas!" I heard Brian call from the living room.

Crap, why is he here? He wasn't invited, but then again neither was Ryan. Should I ask him to leave? I don't really mind him being here but what would my parents say? Kelsey? Ryan? Niall?! They don't know we've been talking so...

I walk into the room and am greeted by a hug. I see Niall eye us, huff, and then walk out the front door. "Merry Christmas to you too." I say.

"Here ya go!" He hands me a present.

"You didn't need to do this, I didn't get you anything... I'd feel bad taking it.'' I blabber on.

"No, really, it's all good. Just open it in private." He winked at me. "Ryan, how are you doing?" He goes over and shakes Ryan's hand. Ryan just stands there, shocked.

"He-hey Brian. Um, what are you doing here?"

"I just wanted to see Renee and give her her present." He flashed me a smile. "I'll be on my way, I don't think I'm really wanted here so... Merry Christmas everybody!" He turned to walk out back to his car.

"Brian, you can stay if you want to." I yell out to him.

So, my rest of the day was spent sitting between Ryan and Brian, Niall shooting me them daggers trying not to make it obvious to me. I sat there and listened to my parents and Sharon and Kelsey talk about the tour. They tried to get me involved in the conversation but I'd just nod my head. Even Niall just sat there, not saying anything-and he was the one that needed to tell and explain everything!

Eventually, my parents left. Kelsey wanted me to spend the night with her for when the rest of the guys to get here tomorrow. Brian and Ryan hung around the house until like 7:00 which I thought was really rude. I mean they weren't even invited in the first place so... Anyway, Brian gave me a quick hug, Niall watching the entire time. Ryan gave me a big long kiss that I had to break away from, again Niall watched the entire time.He didn't talk to me for the rest of the night, he didn't even glance my way.

"Night Niall!' I said before we went to bed. He just grunted and went up to the guest bedrooms.

"Why do you think he's so mad?" Kelsey asked as she crawled in her bed.

"I dunno, what do you think?" I said sarcastically. "Kelsey, I turned him down, again. And on top of that, Ryan's being an arse-trying to show off in front of Niall, trying to piss him off. And then Brian showed up, I mean, what the crap?"

"I don't know... But ya won't have to worry about this in a few days!"

"Yeah, but Niall's all pissed and won't talk to me. I don't want to do this if he's going to be mad all the time. I don't want to make everyone miserable with all this crap going on."

"If you're trying to back out again, forget it. You're not, I forbid it. You've already said you were going, so, nope! Don't even think about it! Now go to sleep!" She ordered.

I lied down and tried to go to sleep. All I could think about was how everything was screwed up right now. I'd messed up everything, and nothing could be fixed now. Why must I always make things miserable for me and everyone I care about?

My thoughts were interupted by the one creaky step in Kelsey's stairwell squeaking. I figured since I wasn't asleep, and was clearly not going to be that way any time soon, I'd go see who it was. I slowly and silently made my way downstairs to see a light coming from the kitchen. Niall was standing there in the fridge, digging out the leftover mashed potatoes and what looked like a turkey leg.

"Hey." I spoke softly.

Once again, he just grunted. "Mind if I stay and hang out and eat with you?" I asked.

He grunted again, sat down, and then pulled out a seat for me. I grabbed the apple pie out of the fridge and cut out a piece. I offered him some and he shoved a forkful in his mouth. I laughed.

"Niall, I'm really sorry." I start. This was going to be hard.

"I said I wouldn't talk to you, but what the heck are you sorry for?" He asked through a mouthful of potatoes.

"For, upsetting you. For being the bitachit that I am, I can't help that I just naturally make people mad and piss them off. I'm really sorry for all of the hurt I've caused you."

"Pssh, I've been turned down a million times before, I'll get over it. And you don't make people mad, everyone that I know absolutely adores you. You're a good, sweet girl that deserves someone to love her with all of his heart, and if you think that's Ryan-or even Brian-then I'm happy for you." He says looking down.

"Thank-you Niall." I said. "Thank-you for always sticking by me, for loving me even when I'm being a total jerk, and for always forgiving me. I love you, Nialler." I said as I get up and give him a quick peck on the cheek.

"I love you too, love. I'll see you in the morning." He gets up and gives me a big hug. We walk back upstairs together and say our good-nights.

I climb under the blankets on the floor. I know now that I can finally feel better and get some sleep. Tomorrow will be a big day, all the boys will be here so we can figure out all the last minute details.

Before I go asleep, I say my prayers and thank God for all he has done for me and given to me. I am truly blessed and sometimes I take all of what He gives for granted. I silently vow to myself that I won't screw up everything for everyone anymore, be nicer, and happier, and just a better person all around.

*****Hey!!!!! It feels like forever since I last updated!!!! What'd ya think?! I know, it wasn't that great, but at least it's an update!!! Anyway, have you heard their new song for the next album-Best Song Ever?! Honestly, I didn't like it. It's not the same music, i's not the same beautiful guys I fell absolutely in love with, the song doesn't sound like them, they don't sound like themselves. I am extremely upset, but I don't think I could ever stop loving the boys, no matter how much they've changed. I guess I can try to get over it but... I don't really know right now. For now, LET'S ALL JUST BLAME MANAGEMENT FOR SCREWING UP EVERYTHING!!!!! I love the boys as they are now, but I miss the old boys. Niall's crooked teeth, Zayn's quiff, Louis's stripes, Liam's curly hair, I miss them so much. I know they're older, but that doesn't mean that they need to go and change something that was already perfect enough. Like I said, I love them as they are now-I'll always love them and keep them in a special place in my heart, I guess it's all a really big change for me right now, and I don't know how to handle it. Sorry, I've been babbling on and on about this. So, why don't you comment and tell me how you feel about this. I'd like to see how everyone feels about it, maybe you could sway me into thinking about it differently, make me change my mind (Lln, see what I did there?!). Anyway, love you all and God Bless!!!*****

~Amber <3