With an Open Heart (Book 2, sequel to "His Mate's Tears")

I'm pregnant

Sabella's POV

I sat on the bed just thinking about what's been happening these past few weeks. The minute after I found out, a lot of things made sense. That week, I had cried practically EVERY night. Ravic would come home and I'd just start crying hysterically about something. This was shocking. I never ever cry. I don't cry at movies. Perhaps I have a heart of stone. Ravic had no idea what to do because again, I never cry. There were other things going on at the time but for the most part, it was unwarranted. This did not tip me off at all. I thought my hormones were just a little scewy from everything that's been happening the past couple of weeks.Taking a moment to look into all I've been through- my sister dying and being returned to lie and the rebuilding of the pack. 

I held the pregnancy test in my hand and still couldn't believe it. I didn't want to be pregnant now. There was too much going on and with the impeding threats to both the pack and I, now just wasn't ready for a child now. I sighed. I wasn't ready for anyone to find out. This was my third test in the past 9 weeks. Its not that I didn't know I was pregnant from the first week when I had vomited at the football game but I tried to hide it and deny every sign.  I knew I was pregnant then but couldn't tell anyone there. I had to scrape the brie off this French toast and say no to smoked salmon and pass on espresso with hopes that no one noticed. Ravic had left to go on a trip, I declined cause I knew that if I went he would find out and I wasn't ready to tell him.

 I made this caramelized pork stir fry which was so delicious that I ate two servings that afternoon. Ever since, I haven't been able to even look at the pork because nothing turns my stomach like that does.

I bought sea bands . They helped... barely. After a few days, they didn't help at all.

I never had the extreme fatigue the others talk about. In fact, I had insomnia. I was not overly tired, but my body felt very tired, if that makes sense. I couldn't sleep at night. I read  like crazy. 

Things got really bad on the day that I was roasting this pork . You know how your entire house fills with the aroma of roasted meat when it takes four or five hours? After an hour, I threw myself on the couch. By the second hour, I turned off the oven, left the kitchen a disaster, left the pork in the oven, pulled my car into the driveway and sat there and cried because everything smelled like pork. Sigh, I hated this.

  I've had a weird taste in my mouth since getting pregnant, which has made drinking water an awful experience. This has perhaps been the worst part for me because I am a psychotic water drinker and have been since I was a child. My mom couldn't even pay my to drink juice, I just loved water so much. I've always hated carbonation because it burns my throat and chest. And sugary drinks and juices make my teeth feel weird. BUT. I've wanted different sodas and flavored drinks a lot more than water these days. 

I know that once Ravic comes home I'll have to tell him.

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Short I know. Next chapter will be a bit longer.