The Masseuse {COMPLETE}

Chapter 12

Ever since the night Janet came in with blotchy red eyes she hasn't been the same. She hasn't even said one bitchy thing to me today. It's like she's sleep walking. She won't even eat. Everytime I cook her something to eat she leaves it on the table.

But it's like once she gets on that stage she was the old Janet. Energetic, happy, spontaneous. Well that's until the show ended. She would go right back into her shell. The crew members started to worry. Hell I was even worried.

"Hey Janet I made you some breakfast if you're hungry," I quietly spoke to the frail woman who looked out the window searching for something far away.

I stood and waited for her to speak, but she didn't. I sighed turning around to leave.

"April," A weak voice called out.

I almost cried turning around looking into her colorless eyes that didn't hold their sparkle anymore.

"Yes," I answered.

"Can I talk to you," She asked sounding broken.

"Yes. You can talk to me about anything," I replied.

She nodded and turned to look out the window again. Then she began to speak.

"I can't believe she came back. I knew she was trouble when I first met her, but I didn't care. She made me smile and laugh like no one else. She told me she loved me the first time we made love, but then I found out she had a boyfriend."

She stopped for a minute balling her hand into a fist then unclenched it and continued.

"I didn't care. I was in love with her still, and I just knew...I just knew I would be the one she would choose to be with. But I was wrong. She became pregnant and he proposed. And as for me I was heartbroken and depressed. It took me ten years to finally get over her, but now she's back and it hurts just thinking about it." She sighed.

I just watched her intently as I took in a more different Janet. The brokenhearted Janet. Who was this she that she was speaking about?

"Have you tried talking it out with her?"

She shook her head no. I walked over to the bed and sat by her.

"Maybe that's what you need to do. Talk things out and maybe just maybe you'll fix the situation."

I smiled rubbing her back.

"I can't April," she replied.

"Janet I know it's hard, but you at least have to try."

"I...I just can't. April I can't fall in love with her again just to get my heart broken," She muttered.

"Well just think about it okay," I said getting up and walking to the door. "And if you do end up falling in love with her again and she breaks your heart I'll be right here with a shoulder to lean on." I added then exited the room.

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I can't believe I'm actually doing this. What April said really got me thinking. It took me a week to finally call and meet up with Toni so we could talk.

So here I was standing on her penthouse porch. I took a deep breath then exhaled before ringing the doorbell. My palms started to sweat as my heart started racing as I heard the locks being unlocked from the other side.

The door then opened revealing Toni in a white sweat shirt and black tights. It was somewhat awkward until she spoke.

"Come in," She said moving out of the doorway.

I walked in taking in all of the penthouse. It was furnished just right and screamed all Toni.

She guided me to the living room and I sat down on the couch rubbing my hands together. I've never been so nervous in my life.

"Would you like anything to drink," She asked.

"No I'm fine. Can we just get this over with," I replied with all honesty.

She nodded then sat on the sofa across from me.

"You never really loved me did you?"

"Janet I did love you, I still do. I just wanted to do what was right for once," she replied.

Really? I raised a perfectly arched eyebrow looking at her. Wow!

"Then why did you lead me on if you were still sleeping with him? Huh? Why," I growled growing irritated.

That seriously can't be her excuse for letting me believe that she was all mine when she really wasn't.

"Me leading you on? You practically seduced me Janet. You knew I was taken by Keri, but you stayed! I didn't put a gun to your head and force you to stay with me! You made the choice of staying by your damn self," she screamed.

I shook my head and grabbed my purse standing.

"I'm not going to sit here and let you make me feel like I'm the bad guy! I stayed because I was in love with you! I stayed because I thought you would choose me over him, but I was completely in over my head! I loved you! I fucking loved you Toni," I shouted at her before leaving walking towards the door.

Toni was hot on my heels.

She yanked my arm spinning me around. "You're not leaving Janet. Not like this. I know I hurt you, and I am from the bottom of my heart sorry. I just really want us to get past this," She muttered.

"How Toni? How are we supposed to get past this when everytime I see you my heart breaks into a million pieces just thinking about everything we could've been together," I responded.

She looked into my eyes probably searching for the right words to answer my question.

Then time stopped as she kissed me pushing me against the wall. I wanted to push her away, but she was still everything I wanted and more.

I moaned in the kiss happy to feel her soft lips against mines again. She wedged between my legs placing my right leg on her hip making my dress rise. Then it hit me.

I gently pushed her away and looked at her.

"You're still married to him aren't you Toni," I asked quietly.

"We're legally separated," She replied before smashing her lips back against mine.

Her hands slowly grazed up and down my thighs sending waves of heat through my body. Yep she still had that heart stopping affect on me, and I don't know if I should hate or love it.

She pulled away from my lips trailing kisses down my cheek to my neck. I moaned as she tortured my hotspot making my body shiver. My eyes darkened with lust as I bit my bottom lip.

"Toni to the b-bedroom," I stuttered.