The chance

chapter 1

All I did was try to be nice. Why is this happening now?

I woke up in the morning to the sound of my alarm clock going off. With very little energy I sat up and leaned over to my little sister, attempting to wake her up.she suddenly woke up and said
"What time is it?"
I smiled at her comment, she asks this every morning when I wake her up.

"it's 6:00, like every other morning ." I answered.

"Awh okay ."
We both got up and made our bed, then went to get dressed.
I didn't feel like having a bunch of people stare at me at school , especially now that I'm starting to get my anxiety back since I'm called a slut and a hoe now.
I decided to wear my black ripped skinny jeans, a black tank top, some black boots and a blue flannel. I don't need to wear that much colors since my hair and flannel are already blue.

I wasn't in the mood to do my makeup either so I just did my eyebrows and put some mascara on. Then I just straightend my hair. Since Tuesday this week I've been wearing things that cover up a lot of my body , I used to wear shorts alot cus it would be hot but the weather has changed plus it harder for people to see me as a slut or whore.
My mom woke up at the sound of my sister singing in her bathroom.

It was 7:00 by the time I got to school, and once I got out of the car I quickly put my earphones in and only looked at my phone pretending to text someone so the group of girls who insist on calling me those names don't have a reason to say something to me.

It's not you're fault,you didn't do anything bad. All you were doing is trying to be his friend.

I kept trying to tell myself this . It repeated over, and over, and over .But each time my mind kept telling me I shouldve stayed in Mexico with my grandmother. I had been in Mexico for 2 years and came back in july.
I left in 8th grade because I had a lot of problems. So many people made me hate myself, I had so much godamn anxiety and cried myself to sleep almost every night.

I walked into the school and saw my group of friends.
And by group of friends i mean the 4 people who i hang out with everyday.

"Hey el!" My best friend Bina greeted me.

Bina was beautiful, she had a perfect cranberry colored hair that reached her chest, her eyes are amazing and she has the most perfect personality any one could have. She's like a sister to me , and she knows almost everything about me, just like I know almost everything about her.

"Hi babe!" My other best friend winter said.
She was also gorgeous , she wears glasses and has mostly clear skin, her hair is shorter than mine and Binas but it suits her perfectly. Her hair is ombré, going from her natural dark brown hair to a harley Quinn red.

I hugged both of them and then took out one of my earphones.
"Hi guys." I said in a very quiet tone.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing I'm just really tired".

Bina looked at me with worried eyes , knowing that I was lying. I don't want to be here, but I don't wanna be home either. I just want to go somewhere with the people who make me happy.

I turned to see the tallest girl from the group of bitches staring at me.
I might be sad but I'm not going to let her fucking look at me like I'm the biggest whore I'm the world.

"What the fuck are you looking at." I practically yelled at her, making everyones attention shoot straight towards me.