Reckless

Chapter 12

I pull up in the driveway. I don't see my moms car so that's a good thing. I get inside my house. I go to the bathroom to try and clean myself up. I grab a towel put it under water and start getting all the blood that's been dripping down my face. This is crazy. How could he do something like this? Yeah, he's hurt me in the past but not like this. I wonder if he ever feels bad that he does this to me. I highly doubt that he's always been like this. Maybe he's changed because of the past he's had. I don't know, but I'm planning to find out..

I don't have a black eyes so that's good. I find in cleaning myself up and grab a pair of clothes from my closet. I grab a pair of spandex shorts and a tank top. I crawl in my bed, and turn on the tv. I decide to watch The Notebook.. It's kit even half way through the movie and I'm already crying. I turn off because I'm really tired. I say and stare at the ceiling for a few minutes and think to myself. 'I have to find out what's going on with Jc. I have to know why all this has happened..' I turn myself over and go to bed.

I turn on my side, it's 10:00 am. Today is the day that I'm getting answers from Jc. I go downstairs real quick. I walk in the kitchen and my mom is standing there "hey Jess!" She says. "Hi mom." "Have anything planned for today honey?" I open the fridge. "Yeah, I'm gonna go hangout with jc.." I say as I close the fridge. "That sounds nice. Have fun." I leave the kitchen and get changed. I but on a pair of light washed ripped jeans and a white California tank top and while converse. I grab my keys and phone. I head toward my car, I get in and text Jc.

To Jc:
I'll be over in a few. Just gonna go get some Starbucks.

I hit send and make my way over to Starbucks. I pull into the parking lot and head inside, I order the same thing I do everytime. I pay for my stuff and head outside. It feels so good outside not to hot, not to cold. Perfect weather. I get in my car, to Jc's house we go. I drive for a few minutes and pull in their driveway. I get out and walk up to there door. I knock, no answer. I knock again, no answer. I call Jc. "Hey, do you not hear my knocking? I'm outside unlock the door and let me in." I say. "You just woke me up.." He snarls. "Just get up!" I bang on the door some more. "Fine! Fine! I'm coming." He says. He finally opens the door. "Someone's a little grumpy today." I say in a little baby voice. "Don't make me mad. I'm not in the mood." He snaps. "Okay." We both walk down to his room. "Why are you here exactly?" Jc asked.

"Jc, are you going to tell me what's going on with you lately?" I ask. "You've been acting extremely weird since the dinner with my mom. Is there something you wanna talk about?" I add. "Um. No, not really. I'm perfectly okay." He says. "Are you sure? Because I hope you know even though everything you do to me, we can still talk.. we can talk about anything you want. I won't judge. Or tell a single soul." I add. "Okay. Okay. I get  it." He says while looking up and making eye contact with me. Man, I love those eyes. I don't like him just his eyes. And his hair. A LOT. 'Snap out of it Jessica, YOU DONT LIKE JC, YOU CANT ESPECIALLY AFTER EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED' I repeat in my head. 

"So are you gonna tell me what's up?" He shrugs. "I'm not gonna force you but if you wanna talk, text me." I say while getting up off his bed.. "Bye Jc." I say while I opened the door, I popped my head back in to see if he was gonna say something. "Bye babe." He says with a  smile. I know it's fake. He's acting weird and I wanna know what it is.

Jc's POV

I grab the phone out of my pocket. I dial some numbers and hit call. The phone rings for a few seconds, thank god he picked up. "Hey Kian, where are you? We gotta talk." I quickly say while walking toward my jeep. "I'm heading to my car, I'll meet you at the house." He says. "Okay. See ya later dude." I say, I hang up. I put some clothes on real quick. As I'm driving, I start thinking. 'How is Jessica going to understand that I've changed. She's won't get it. She won't get that i loved Ashley, and I was perfectly happy with her and my life. After I found out that she cheated on me and never liked me, I was hurt. So I changed to the guy Jessica knows. The one bad guy in school that everyone never messed with, and the one who gets in fights and has a bad temper. Kian is the only person who knows about how bad Ashley hurt me. He is the only person that I can trust. But he told me that i should tell Jessica and maybe things will be different. But they won't. She'll never believe me. Everything that I've done to her isn't the real me. I've hurt her so much, all she has ever done is tried and help.' I think.

I sit on the couch waiting for Kian. I see Kian's car pull up in the driveway so he's home. I get up and head toward to front door. I open the door "Kian, we need to talk!" I say "Okay, I'm here. What is this about?" He asks. "Jessica has been asking me every second what's wrong and why I've been so weird since the dinner with her mom. What do I say? I can't tell her. you know that." I start. "I think you should tell her. Maybe she will understand that she hurt you. And she is the reason why you are who you are now." He says. "Jessica knows the Jc who gets in fights, and everyone's scared of. She's gonna think I'm Lying so that way she'll get closer to me and than leave her just like all of the other girls.." I stop talking. 'I can't like Jessica. I can't' I tell myself over and over in my head.