Among the Dead Ones (On Hold)

Apart

My first night in here I could said pretty well I couldn't sleep at all focus and listening every movement hearing every word...everything...
The news about me here running pretty faster....the alpha daughter is back..
More weight into my life...great.....
Sending a message to Adrian like I promised standing from my bed and walk at the window watching around me.....all the place they been celebrating the whole night because I'm back and I don't remember every single face and that really scary me ....for real....
My phone buzzing a message reading it...my heart already beating faster...
I'm understand your fear but one way or another you have to remember......
Taking my phone answering him
Im afriad not remembering you and the family once my memory is back.......
Sending....
Is that the price I have to paid to keep you save....is okay....
What?.......I said writing back
No is not okay.....You save me ...I trust you....you been through a lot to save me...no....I'm not agree....don't even think about it....
Sending...
Is not a debt what I want to have with you....I don't want you to feel for me is a debt.....
Your wrong......I said looking at me phone writing back
You know how I'm feeling right now do you?...
Sending.....
I do......
Them is not a debt what I feel because this heart beating again thank to you so stopping be so stubborn....if piss me off
I look at my phone actually hurt
You know what forget it.....i said anger turning off my phone and leaving it at the night stand mad
Forget what.......
My body tensed with the sound of his voice he ....Kevin got something that really make me don't trust in him at all
You should knocking first....I said moving my hand around my chest tensed but without looking at him
I'm sorry....is .....that....we......get use to see each other like that...Kevin said standing behind me
Closing my eyes trying to ignoring him is worst than recovery my memory
I would like you remembering .....me.....I miss you....Kevin said tensed and to closer
I would love to really but when my memory is back....so back off...don't get to near me....I said moving away from him
He look at me smiling sad
You reaction is because of our connection we been to long distance from each other your subconscious nows who I'm but your mind don't let you help to remember......Kevin said following with his eyes tensed
I look at him confused some part of me yeah but also is screaming at me very loud don't trust in him.....
You want me to remember......I ask him curious
Of course anything...Kevin said glowing
Until them get the hell away from my room and don't getting inside without knocking....I said stepping back
He look at me hurt....
Safire......Kevin said walking at me
I step back
Correction my name is Safira and you still inside my room....I said uncomfortable
We staring at each other actually I'm looking at him his brown short messy hair he was wearing a cowboy hat ...is caramel eyes hurt like his pride..perfect face a shadow of bear square shoulder good looking body wearing simple jeans and blue shirt but even with all that I don't feel ......nothing
He was walking at the door...
Kevin.....I started to said walking at him
He look at me
How long?....I ask pointed at us
Together.....Kevin ask actually smiling
Yeah.....I said
Sa.....Safira our relationship was arranged to unified our clans when we where ready to taking our vows actually in few more weeks it was gonna be our wedding but life make it postponed until you recovered and we know each other since kids....like I said ....I don't get used to this....our distance but It won't happened again until your ready...Kevin said standing in front of me lowing his head I step back unconsciously he look at me for a moment brushing his lips softly in my hair barely stepping back and walking at the door
I hope see you later...Kevin said walking out of the door
I'm just exhaling hard feeling my heart want to explode running at the door used the locked and go back to the bed sitting covering myself
Me married with him....no.....that's not gonna happened.....

A rush of adrenaline...fear....running in my veins recognize a faster heartbeat....Safira
Taking my phone in a hurry and calling her the sound of her voicemail...
Don't do this to me.....I said tensed trying to relax moving my hand at my face
I'm already in San Francisco in the car going to the apartment but for real I just want to take a flight back and take her out with me I know something happened but she doesn't answering me...
Fuck.....I said throwing my phone at my side and now losing control
Wow.... I never saw you with this kind of anger
And totally forget I wasn't alone...
Stop....I started to said trying to look outside
Problem in paradise....Paolo ask me curious
I look at him in killing way changed my eyes
I'm just asking, you look like somebody take you something very value from you....Paolo said changing from his sit far from me
I breath hard out still looking outside
Did you love her?....Paolo ask me
I look bad at him again
Look Adrian .....if is about the girl I meet last time less be realistic you fall for her and her for you so why hidden...it was so obviously that day and the way you handle the phone each time it make a sound you checking but if your not secure on your own feeling them free her because ...she's the one who's gonna get hurt...Paolo said ignoring my anger transformed face looking away
Paolo...I started to said with my jaw clenched
He look at me crossing his arm
You maybe a big bad vampire with all this kind of strength and habilities but this one just fall for one simple human emotion and is killing you ....when you ready to admitted then we talk for now concentrate because we have a lot of work to do....