Among the Dead Ones (On Hold)

Anger or Love

What you mean she's not here?....
The sound of my brother voice thunder inside the apartment I don't know what worse he or she..I'm just still sitting in the sofa waiting for my dear brother finishing....
For a hundred time I don't know Glory came inside without permission going aggressive at her without even care revealing herself at Safira slashing her arm safira didn't think twice and reveal herself at her throwing her out of here man what kind of woman you choose? but I have to admit I like safira definitely.....I said ignoring his killing anger face
Them she just walk inside her room ....Adrian started to said clueless standing at her room
And she locked herself she didn't do nothing else them I wake up at night and check on her it was empty her room was empty...I said reading my brother thoughts
Adrian......
She could be anywhere and I have to go back...Adrian said anger frustrated but with desperation in his voice
Why you didn't tell her about "the other's" you have it in your life..I said reading his face
Frederick I didn't have time to even ask her formally.....Adrian said tensed looking back at me
Moving myself in front reading his face strange
But you are compromised with her everbody knows that...I said confused
Frederick I said so dad can't hurt her in that moment but I didn't give her a ring or a dance .....Adrian didn't finished walking at his room showering and changed
So.....is a fake your feelings for her...I ask now curious
I'm just provoking him more......worse
Watch it......Adrian said in killing way putting a shirt and look at me going to the table taking his phone
Well enlightening me because right now I'm ver confused...I said standing up and standing next to him
Adrian put his hand over the table tensed and looking out
Adrian.....
I love her....okay....Adrian said anger
Okay.....I get it ..if doesn't seem wrong except she's a wolf...but is that what you want fine with me....your choice....I said reminded him
He look back at me inhaling tensed and leave my side walking at the door
Yeah but she's also my mate....

San Franciso is a big place not like ...I don't even remember but I know is somewhere around
I'm just walking the street at night waiting for the morning light to come out and refresh my mind....
I never felt so much anger or jealously in my whole life together...never....I didn't think of it I'm just react.....just like that  not even think about the consequences but I did it because he said he love me ...I'm doing it right....I guess...
Looking at my arm completely heal moving my hands at my pockets and continued with my walking
I need to ease my mind..I'm started acting to possessive and that's not me....I'm not like that exhaling tensed standing exacty where the transportation going down the famous road of San Francisco inhaling hard and keep walking..
He most be sick worried I know I can scent it but was excuse I have for my reaction
Each day I'm doing it better.....great....I said tensed
Need a drive......
Stopping without looking back at her
How long you been following me?........I ask looking at the other side of the street and saw her...Kate
Not much your not exactly easy to find..I guess I'm lucky to find you...Kate said making a u turn in her car parking in front of me
Then what are you doing here?.....I ask looking the road
Bringing your things like my lovely brother ask me founding you that was lucky.....Kate said smiling
I didn't answer her back or make a comment
You know my brother meet a lot of woman before you...right....Kate comment I look at her
But I have to admit something your the only one who have him grabbing by his balls....Kate said smiling thinking
I'm just nodding negative smiling at her comment in desbelieve
You don't believe in me Do you? Because I can prove it to you come with me and you'll see....Kate said opening the passenger door car at me
I look at the road them at her surrender walk around and getting inside her car....the driving from my part was in silence Kate was the only voice inside the car....
We arrived quietly Adrian was recording inside a studio....
Paolo was there already waiting for us Kate call him he let us pass and we walk behind him..
I'm just admiring around me the scene look like a castle just from the inside....
Over there....Kate said low pointed looking at me
Moving my eyes founding him sitting like a aristocracy drinking and having this girl hovering around him and for a second just for a second I totally forgot he's was acting feeling myself anger again making me just look away ..
Are you jealous? .....Kate ask me when she saw my reaction
I'm fine.....it just....I didn't finished moving my hands at my pockets trying to find a door and run away
Out of control....Kate said concerned
Yeah.....a lot....I said looking back at him but he was looking straight at me
I think he saw you....Kate said smiling
Cut let's take a break awesome Adrian have a rest....
Adrian just smile at the director the girls giggling around him he just look at the girls apologizing and walk at us standing in front of me
Prepared for the worst ....Kate said smiling at him standing behind me
Brother....look who I found?.....I believe she belong to you...Kate said excited
He look at her lowing brushing his lips softly at her cheeks smiling back at her
Thank you...Adrian said grabbing my hand and started following him....okay he's dragging me out at his trailer he didn't said a word just walking he opening the door we walk inside listening closing the door turning facing him but surprising he grabbing me by my waist sitting me over the table with him in front of me almost transformed.
That make me gasping involuntary scared
What was you thinking?...I was worried for you...Adrian said tensed his hands at my side
I'm just moving my lashes faster...nervous
Ahhh....I'm sorry....I didn't mean it.....I said very innocent
He look at me for a moment.....sad
Safira...I thought you leave me....Adrian said now seriously
I look at him confused
Why I'm gonna do something like that?.....I ask more confused
I don't know Safira when I returned at the apartment and not finding you...Adrian didn't finished
Breathing hard myself moving my hands at my face feeling shame but looking at him
I'm just taking some anger out...I didn't mean worried you...I said moving my hands at his hair caressing softly watching and smiling he's getting back to normal and resting his head in my hands
We staying in our own ...moment....
Adrian they want you back.....
We look at the door the guy look surprised I simple smile and waived my hand at the guy
Hi.....I simple said
Wow....she's your girlfriend.....the guy ask him
Adrian look at me getting more closer breathing over my lips
Yes she is....Adrian said now smiling
You are the most lucky son of the gun...She's gorgeous....the guy said
Thanks .....I said blushing but focus on Adrian
You know what I give you 15 minutes she deserved it is a pleasure finally meet you ....the guy said
Opening my eyes surprised at him....He just smile closing the door
Adrian move his hands at my hips pulling me softly against him lowing his head at my neck listening him inhaling and gasping ..
Stay......stay with me....Adrian said using his lips in my neck like feathers over my skin
His effect over me was automatically lying back my head exposed my neck his smile over my neck
O seuo cheiro....o seu perfeito skin....absolutamente perfeito. ....você tem me hipnotizar...
(Your scent.....your skin....absolutely perfect..you have me mesmerize)
His words make my skin crawling but looking strange at him
What language is that?....I ask curious moving my hands through his chest around his neck
He lifting me up smiling brushing his lips with mine lowing me but keeping me closer
Portuguese.....Adrian said taking my hand we walking out of his trailer back to the studio
What I'm gonna do?....I ask looking all those eyes focus on me and Paolo aproching to us Adrian sitting me in his chair and Paolo bringing me some headphones
Taking it in my hand curious and look both
So you can listening what there talking...Paolo said smiling next to me
I'm just watching these people next to me check on him his hair his clothes
He's ready...
Adrain lowing himself in my ear
Dinner later just you and me.....Adrian said smiling in a sexy way brushing his lips softly in my cheeks
Gasping surpised and feeling my face blushing looking at him ...I couldn't talk and he was waiting for my answer I couldn't answer just nodding affirmative with my head he just smile back
Later...don't move from there...Adrian said pointed at his chair
I look at his chair them at him beside I got eagle Paolo all over me
I won't........

Working with her around help me but also distracting me a lot..very
Cut lets do it again....
I'm just breathing hard out tensed doing the scene again already tired looking back at Safira ...she was enjoying mocking on me..
Let me finished this and Im personally gonna deal with you later...i said very low so she only could hear me her reaction priceless her face totally pale bringing me some joy and smile back at her listening the director...
Action.....

At night very late
We are back at the apartment after expending the entire whole day watching him acting do again the scene between frustration until they made it right between having lunch and else with theirs partners actor they all received me very happy ..I didn't know he never bring a girl to watch him maybe visit him and always apart from everybody....like the rest have a decease....
Dinner was delightful under a almost half moon just the two of us very relaxing after a hard day work but something is missing he don't said it he don't need it because he don't want me to worried he didn't drink blood almost the whole entire week and thats no normal for someone like him and I know because each time he's getting closer his eyes involuntary changed sometimes he staying away keeping distance from me....
Adrian go at back his room closing his door
Good night.....he said without looking back at me
Ahhh.....goodnight. ...I said watching him leaving left me alone in the living room
Breathing hard out looking around me Frederick just left was the note said....oh yeah...
Mission Complete.......
This is not a game...I said leaving the note over the table and walk to my room shower changing myself for a short black nightgown and sitting in my bed actually trying to link with Adrian but nothing he got me blocked
Talk to me.....I said frustrated standing from the bed going to the kitchen taking a bottle of blood and walk at his room using all my scent.... silence
Opening the door quietly and look around everything was dark to dark
Adrian....I know your here talk to me .....please....I said getting inside closing the door leaving the bottle over his nightstand listening
A wind brushing the back of my hair my back hitting against the wall with no time to react following for the sound of breaking skin.....I can't breath....his hand on my hips lifting me using force against me
Adrian.....I trying to said but I can't even talk
He's whole body in tension his muscle the sound of my blood passing through his throat he got me against the wall his hands tigh at my hips I could feel his aroused member at me pushing him it would be a wrong idea...a big mistake
What choice I have ? Only one ..So I left him....
Because......I ...love....him

Out of control on myself....because I can't drink blood...any blood because...I don't want nobody else ....only hers
Her taste.....her smell....feeling my body react only with her because I want her more than her blood....her body.....her skin.....her heartbeat....desperately
Wait......
Listening her heartbeat getting slowly.....
Image inside of her mind crossing to my mind the night of the attack....hers....when she was....rape....getting weak in my arms
Stop.......
Leaving her neck watching Safira pass out in my arms I can't barely hear her heartbeat....
No.....
Lifting her desperately and lying her in my bed cutting my wrist and give her my blood
Come one.....Come on angel....I'm sorry....I said tensed
I keep feeding her with my blood until her heart beating normal again and see my bite mark disappearing....she was resting I'm move myself back from the bed horrified looking myself in the mirror her blood in my lips against my skin I hurt her...i almost kill her...I promised her...Hitting the wall breaking the mirror hating myself.
What I have done?.....