This Girl [Completed] (2014)

Chapter 40: Part 1

Jaida

Watching Q stand next to the casket hurt my soul. He was being extremely strong after what he's been through. I've never seen him react this way towards anybody. I stood next to Liyah as she held Joy in her arms, cradling her. "How has he been Liyah?" "Honestly, he's been content lately. Like he'll help with the baby but he doesn't say anything. I just hate seeing him like this, you know?" Liyah somberly spoke. I walked over to him grabbing his hand staying quiet. We both stood in front of Julia's casket as we both said a prayer. "Are you okay Q? I'm so sorry that this happened." He stood there saying nothing, instead he gripped my hand as he would do when we were younger. I knew he was hurting inside but he had to be strong for his family but more importantly, his daughter. "Jai, I don't know how to feel about this shit. It's like I wanna be done with it and forget but-". Something was holding him back from telling me what happened. I only knew that she was shot and killed her house. I've only met her a few times and she was always cordial towards me. "Q, what's wrong? Tell me please." He took a deep breath and let all of his emotions out. "I wanna be mad at her ass for this shit. She was pregnant with my kid and wanted me to take care of our kid together instead of Liyah's. I got mad and left to be with Liyah at the hospital. I came back that night and found her dead in the fucking tub! I'm pissed off Jai! I just am!" I immediately grabbed him and hugged him as tight as I could. I hated seeing him like this; all gloomy and depressed. Instead of him enjoying the fact that his daughter was born, he also lost the woman who was carrying his other child. We left afterwards and I had to make my way back to New York. Arriving at the hotel, I didn't see any sign of Dante at all. I called his phone with no answer which worried me. I ended up leaving him a message on his voicemail and got into the shower afterwards. I thought about everything that Q told me earlier. My heart went out to him for this tragic event in his life. Getting out of the shower, I wrapped the towel around my body and walked out to the bed and laid down. It was beginning to get late outside as I waited around for him. I ended up dozing off until I heard three loud knocks at the door. I jumped up to go see who it was. Using the peephole in the door, I didn't see anything since some asshole wanted to cover it with a finger. "Who is it?" There was no response so I decided to grab the iron and open the door. It was Keenon standing there smiling like he won the lottery. "You play too much! How did you know I was here?" He picked me up and carried me to the bed. "Girl LA Is my city. I know your every move. So when you start answering the door in a towel?" I laughed and covered back up. "Well I thought you were my man, so my bad." I laughed as his facial expression changed. "He a square man. Like this nigga too perfect and shit." He joked annoying the fuck outta me. "Sorry, we can't all be asshole rappers that don't give a fuck about anything or anybody. "Jaida, shut the fuck up!" "Oh did I hit a nerve? Somebody's feelings hurt? Awww poor baby." I turned around and laughed. Suddenly, I felt his body pressed up against mine and his fingers creep into my forbidden fruit. I lifted my leg and closed my eyes as I took him in whole. There we were against the wall having sex once again. I turned to kiss him and  removed the towel finding myself lifting my body up against the wall. "Kee, we gotta stop this! This isn't right! Not to Dante or to your baby mama." Quite frankly I didn't care about his situation. He sure didn't care about mine. "I think it's best to leave Kee." He looked at me and put me down and sat on the bed. "It's really over huh?" Keenon sighed. "Yeah it is. I think it's best we just stay friends." I got dressed, kissed his cheek and hugged him. Keenon walked out but before that he gave me the most passionate kiss before walking away. Soon after, Dante walked in and we were en route back to New York.

The next day

Kendrick

Today I just laid in the bed. I didn't want to be bothered with anyone today. It had felt like I fell into a deep depression. Sherane was gone away on business and I haven't left since she's been away. I didn't know what had overcame me but feeling like this only brought out the worst in me. Hearing the phone ring, I seen it was my mom inviting me over for some cookout shit. I answered it and she immediately yelled in my ear to hurry my black ass up. "Okay ma, I'll be there. Yeah okay. I got you!" I hung up from my mom and got out the bed and quickly in the shower. After 30 minutes, I got out and slid on a white t-shirt and jeans with a pair of Jordans. I drove in silence until I     reached the house. I looked at everybody who was outside in the yard having fun. For a minute, I sat and asked myself did I really wanna be here now? I sucked it up and exited the car and walking onto the porch. "Kendrick! Welcome home boy!" My mother grabbed and squeezed me tight causing her to cut off my circulation. "What's up ma? What is this for?" She told me that it was for all of my accomplishments and for my album which was met with praise. I smiled and hugged her for the party. "Where's your wife?" I looked down and away before she asked me again. "She's away on business ma. Why?" "No reason. I would've thought she'd be here seeing that the two of you are husband and wife now." I heavily sighed and walked into the kitchen and greeted everyone. It was good to be surrounded by love again. I almost lost track of what it felt like to be around it. Don't get me wrong, I love Sherane but lately we haven't been on the same level. Its either we're fighting and the next we end up in the bed together. I was growing sick of it and I have a feeling she was feeling the same way. I went into the backyard and sat in silence. I checked my phone to see if she called; she hadn't. I suddenly heard this commotion in the kitchen. I walked back in to see what had happened. "Look Kendrick! Its Lucy." She turned around and blew me away. I could tell milk did her body well. "Hi Kenny." Lucy shyly said while pulling me in for a hug. "How are you and congrats on the marriage." "Thanks a lot. I appreciate it." It was awkward as hell because I haven't seen her since at graduation back in high school. She had went to leave the day after. "You two should go catch up." My mom stated and I agreed. We had so much to talk about.  Taking her to the backyard, we ended up reminiscing about growing up together to now.  "So what about you Miss Wright? How was Miami?" "It was hot. Very hot." We both laughed like we did when we were kids. Lucy was kind of the girl next door who was everything I looked for in a girl now. "So I heard you graduated with the highest honors. You the shit Lucy!" "No, I just buckled down for the last 5 years but I get what you're saying. So who's the lucky girl?" "Sherane." Her facial expression changed. I don't know what happened but the two of them were friends until one day they fell out over something petty. "Wow, she's real lucky." I grabbed her hand and held it. It was great seeing my friend again. I missed her. We exchanged numbers and I was looking to get in touch with her more.