Never Fall (COMPLETED)

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

"Here this came for you." My mom handed me am envelope.

I took it and looked at her funny. She looked upset. She left out my room. It didn't say where it was from. I opened it up and took out the paper. I unfolded it and started reading.

Dear Roxie,

If you're reading this then that means I fell in battle. Now before you start crying I want you to know that I'm in a better place now and I can see everything. I'm always there and always listening. So be careful.  

I'd like to say that I'm sorry for leaving your mother in time of need. I'm sorry for divorcing her when I was away but I saw no other choice. Things just weren't the same. This letter isn't for her, it's for you.  

I remember when you were little you used to run around singing at the top of your lungs. No one knew what song you were singing because it was barely audible. That's how awful it was. I'm sorry sweetie but it was the truth. As you got older it got slightly better and easier to understand. I bet you are an amazing singer now.  

I'm sorry for missing so much of your life because of this. You don't know how much I missed you when I was away. I was happiest when I was at home.  

I remember you were five. I had came home and you were asleep on the couch. I carried you up to your room and laid in your bed with you until I fell asleep. The next morning I was being attacked by your little figure jumping on me. I couldn't help but smile at your precious face. You were my princess. You were my angel. You were my miracle.  

I don't know of your mother told you or not but we almost lost you. We had got into an accident a few months before you were ready to come out. They were forced to do a c-section. When you came out you weren't breathing but you were alive. They didn't stop for almost a week they worked on you. Then one faithful day while I was praying the doctor came in and said: 'she took her first breath' with a huge smile on his face. I was so thankful for that day. I swore I heard angels sing when I got to hold you in my arms. You were so tiny. I guess that's why you're so small now.  

I have something important to tell you Roxie. Michael told me what happened. He wrote to me. You don't know how bad I wanted to be there for you. But you need to let go. What happened back then should not have an affect on who you chose to love now. You are a strong girl and I know you are unless you wouldn't be here. Everyone goes through these things. Don't give up on love baby girl. You will find the right one I know it.  

Since I wrote this when I got called back like they somehow knew I would just die this year. (Like I don't have many more in file) I lifting your punishment. I'm not there to carry it out and I'm pretty sure you already did something to disobey it anyway. So you're off punishment. That's the only good thing out of this letter. Since just getting this letter in horrible enough.  

Remember I love you with all my heart. Michael will be there and go through this with you. You both need to go through it slowly with the twins. They're only 5. Take care of you and your mother. Especially your brothers(mostly Michael) I did apologize for dropping him on his head. I love you so much my angel princess.

Lots of love,  

Daddy xoxo

I wiped away the tears that fell.

He's gone. He's dead. They took away the one I loved. They took my life long best friend away from me. I can't believe those horrible people.