Never Fall (COMPLETED)

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

I decided to get some coldstone today. The usual vanilla ice cream and snicker chunks. Ok maybe it wasn't the best choice at the moment. But coldstone helped me think and I needed to do a lot of thinking since Tuesday night. It's been bugging my mind but I never wanted to contemplate on it until I had the time. It's Saturday afternoon and I definitely had the time.

Today I was wearing my blue camisole, with my grey aero sweatpants and my black jacket. Along with my blue converse.

I headed back towards my street. I decided to walk to coldstone since it was just a mile up the road. Saving the earth one car at a time. Plus I needed the fresh air.

Now time to bring up the subject of my rumination: Zane.

I mean he's cute, but I don't like him. He knows how to make me laugh, but I don't like him. He gives me this weird feeling when he touches me, but I don't like him. I can be relaxed around him and not fend him off, but I don't like him. His smile makes my insides melt, but I don't like him. When he sings or acts I can't help but watch in awe, but I don't like him. So that kiss meant nothing right?

I mean I can't like him. He's become part of the more popular crowd. Like the jocks and cheerleaders. He's bound to forget about me soon. Then I'll just get heartbroken, if I liked him which I don't.

He's like a Greek god. Probably even a roman one too. He's handsome, he can sing, he can act, he beat Matthew for MVP in football. His smile is knee weakening. He's sweet and cocky. Any girl could be lucky to have him, just not me.

He's a player. He told me he's never been in love. He said he's had more girlfriends than he can count, nothing serious. So how could I trust him if we did end up together? If I had liked him.

I threw away my bowl and spoon since nothing else was in it. Looks like I have to think on my own. I took the long way through the park.

The sky started to darken.

Great looks like rain.

I groaned and officially headed home. I felt something tap my shoulder. I looked at it and a rain drop had fell. Few seconds later it started pouring. I put on my hood and prepared to be soaked.

His lips were so soft against mine. They moved so perfectly together. I just wished I didn't pull away before his tongue had gotten involved.

That kiss had me jacked up since it happened. I couldn't focus in class because I found my self thinking about the kiss and brushing my lips with my fingers. The tingles were still there and I didn't like that. The only good thing that happened since Tuesday was he was gone the rest of the week. So that way it wouldn't be so awkward between us.

My clothes clung to me like a second skin and my hair was now wet and clumpy.

I don't like Zane. I can't like him. I forbid it.

You can't forbid feelings Roxie.

I have for almost 3 years now. I can do forever if I have to.

Forever is a long time. Wouldn't you rather spend it with a man?

Nope I'm perfectly fine with mr. Cuddle bunny.

You're pink bunny?

Yes my pink-

"Omf." I fell to the ground.

That hurt! What did I run into?

I looked up and saw Zane shaking slightly. His hair was now plaster to his forehead and water streamed down his face. His white v-neck clung to him exposing the body underneath it. His muscles were tight and his hands were in his pockets.