Suicidal (Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Black

I walked into school knowing exactly where I was going, Levi's locker! I couldn't wait to see him. As I turned the corner in the hallway, my eyes filled with tears. Levi was kissing Kelly. "W-w-what are you doing" I said as a tear rolled down my cheek. " Aww look at wittle y/n. Why don't you go to your mommy and cry. Oh wait your mom hates you." Kelly said. I wanted to punch her in the face so bad. "Levi?" I said, hoping he would explain and everything would be okay. He looked down. As Kelly opened her big ass mouth again. "Do you think he ever really loved you? We've been hooking up everyday y'all have been 'dating'." Tears started rolling down my face like a river. I turned around and ran out my school.

I ran all the way home, sobbing. I thought for once in my life someone loved me. But it turned out that he just wanted to take my virginity. No wonder he wasn't gentle. He didn't even care. Not about me, my feelings, or even the way it would affect me. I closed my apartment door, and slid down it sitting down on the ground, crying. After about an hour I decided I would go take a bath. I ran some warm water, undressed, and climbed in. I played More Than This on my iPod. I closed my eyes trying to relax, but the more I just sat there the more I felt unloved. I opened my eyes and looked at my sink which had a razor on it. 'Why not' I told myself. I stood up in the tub and reached for it. I sat back down in the tub, putting the razor to my wrist. I pressed down, putting pressure against the razor which cut into my skin. I repeated this action three times. Each one hurting worst than the first. There was blood everywhere. Turning the water red, running down the side if the tub. As I went to make the fourth cut, I started to feel dizzy. My eyesight started getting blurry. I heard a voice in my apartment. Before I could make out who it was everything went black.