I love her

The Beginning

We met it April, about two years ago. I thought she was gonna hate me, Nikki said she was mature, I'm not. She was beautiful, I'm not, I knew she was gonna hate me, I'm an ugly faggot that likes the same gender, apparently I'm a sin.

All I know, is that I love her so.
But all I am, is a heartbreaker.
She won't ever forgive me for what I said.
Yet I have already forgave he for what she did.
She won't love me, she never has and never will.

I was in love with her, she tried at the beginning, but left me heartbroken at the end, I remember when we went to the park, we played a stupid zombie apocalypse game, that I love so much. We got bored and went to the fountain, sat on a few rocks and just talked.
We played 20 questions, asking stupid things at first, then I got serious, we talked about why we did what we did, I should've told her the truth. I guess I sorta did? Telling her I got bullied, told to die. It wasn't all false. I should've told her why tho, I should've told her I'm ashamed, my mom is ashamed.

I love her tho, I still fucking love her! And I don't care who finds out. Even if it's her who finds out, I don't give a fuck.

Being in love with your best friend isn't good, it's probably the worse thing that could ever happen.

They said it was puppy love, but I know it wasn't, it's not. It was real love, it still is. I just need to find the courage to tell her that I love her.
I love her.