Haunted Hearts || A.W.G || [Discontinued]

Jealousy, Aggressiveness and Tear Stained Cheeks || Chapter Thirty-Five

"I'm breaking down, gonna start from scratch, shake it up like an etch-a-sketch. My lips are saying goodbye, my eyes are finally dry. I'm not the way that I used to be, I took the record off repeat. It killed me but I survived and now I'm coming alive."

Alex
April 22nd

Ugh, I can't stand seeing Emerald flirt with Patrick, it fills me with anger.

"Still getting jealous over her?" Jack asks. "She's supposed to be mine." I say through clenched teeth. "She's not your property, Alex. You don't own her." He furrows his eyebrows. "Like hell she isn't. I'm the one who loves her, not him. He can never replace me, he can never treat her as good as me." I raise my voice. "Really? Because you treated her like shit so he actually can treat her way better than you did."

"Who's side are you on?"

"Emerald's. She's right to move on."

"You're suppose to be my best friend."

"I'm Emerald's best friend too."

"More like fuck buddy." I scoff. "That's not true. It only happened because you cheated on her for the millionth time." He rolls his eyes. "But you continued to do it. So no, it wasn't just once." I turn my attention back to Patrick and Emerald.

"You know what?" He abruptly stands up. "I am so done with your dickishness! I watched as you walked all over her like a fucking doormat and now you're sitting here acting like you're so much better than Patrick! You're way worse! I want my best friend back, I want the friend that was fun and never judged anyone, the one that was hilarious and never got jealous! Where's that guy, huh?!" He stomps away, leaving me alone to think. I notice Emerald say something to Patrick then start walking towards me. "What was that about?" She asks and sits next to me.

"Nothing, Jack and I just had words." I shrug. "Don't play dumb, I heard everything. He practically screamed through a megaphone." She chuckles. I give this half smile that really wasn't genuine. "Alex, you have nothing to be jealous about." She places her right hand on my knee. "We're just close friends. Of course this doesn't give you permission to watch us all day and even if we were dating, it's for the best." "It's not for the best." I raise my voice but not loud enough to be counted as a yell. "We went through this. Our relationship is toxic and nothing can change that." She says. "I can change that, I can change myself." I look at her.

"Do you know how many times I've heard that come out of your mouth since high school? You never change, Alex."

"I fucking love you. I'm going to change whether you think I can or not." I huff and stand up, walking to my tour bus.

Emerald

I walk back to Patrick and sigh. "What happened?" He asks, worried. "Alex had a fight with Jack and now he's going full drama queen mode." I roll my eyes. "That's not your problem, Em. Don't try to help him. He can only help himself." He says. "He's one of my best friends." I look down. "I know he is, but when two best friends fight and you interfere and just make it worse. You're not a friendship mender, no one can be. Only they can work it out."

"Patrick Stump, 2k11." I chuckle. "Shut up." He pushes my shoulder lightly.

July 20th - The Rave - Milwaukee, Wisconsin
7:00 PM

"What's up, Milwaukee?!" I yell into the microphone and the crowd cheers. "Fun fact, you guys are the last U.S. date, then we go to Europe." I say then they cheer louder. "So because of that, we'll be performing one of our newest songs that no other people know except us." I start to play the beginning to "Absolution".