Imprisonment

I heard him lift the toilet seat, followed by a trickle.

I hung up my jacket as I entered the Cullen's mansion; I could never get over how beautiful and open it was, so white and so polished. When I was younger i'd always wanted a house like this but I wouldn't be able to with Jake, he'd just dirty everything.

"What are you thinking of?" he asked, he wrapped his arms around me as I entered the lounge.

"Oh, just thinking that we could never live in a house like this because you'd get it dirty" I giggled, Jake slowly steered to the lounge, gently laying me against his chiseled chest "we'd have to live in a little cottage by the sea of course..."

We weren't supposed to mention my last few hours but I couldn't help it, I couldn't push it aside anymore and I don't think he could blame me.

"Do you know how much I already miss you?" I started, I promised myself I would cry but my eyes watered just thinking about not being near him.

"Don't worry, I'll be following right behind you" he muttered in my hair, my body tensed and I shot up to face him.

"Yeah, nah" I disagreed, a tear escaped my eye and rolled down my cheek "that's not going to be happening"

"What am I going to do here without you?" he asked, completely serious.

"I'll tell you what you're going to do; you're going to stay and led the pack, even if it only consists of two members, you're going to want to stay with Seth, you're going to move around with the Cullen's all over the world, coming back to see your dad every couple of months, one day you're going to meet a really cool chick, who is going to make you smile without noticing, you're going to fall in love with her, you're going to tell her what you are and she won't be afraid of you, that my dear sir is what you're going to do" my voice was steady the whole time, powerful, commanding but my face was a different story I couldn't see Jacob though the tears, for all I know he could have left and made himself a sandwich, I felt a hands rest against my cheeks and to thumb softly wiped away my tears.

"Sorry I can't do that" he declined, not even looking remotely shattered "I'm not going to love anyone as much as I love you"

"You better not love her as much as you love me, or I'm going to haunt you" I joked, well tried to I was actually contemplating on doing that "but I know you can, that's why you won't have sex with me"

His face changed to shock as I said it, he knows that I'm completely right and I don't blame him, Leah had told me, once we imprint we grow a bound, but once we are fully mated that bound is secure like a marriage vowel, forever and always, but if the mate dies, the constant loneliness consumes then leaving them in a state of depression, I didn't want Jake to go through that.

"Leah...." He breathed knowing exactly who told me "she had no right..."

"She had every right!" I yelled, my temper getting the better of me. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because I didn't want you to worry, I was scared & embarrassed" he admitted, he searched my eyes for forgiveness, but there was nothing to forgive he was just stupid.

Instead of saying one of my brilliant one-liners, I just decided to kiss him.

Had I described kissing Jacob yet? Well I'm going to just tell you again, kissing Jacob felt like time had stopped, that ever nerve in my body was alive and just wanted to feel his skin against mine, eventually Jacob pulled back, leaving us both out of breath.

"You look like a mess" Jacob commented I just pouted "you should go have a shower"

"Want to join?" I flirted, knowing full well he was going to say no, but he just laugh and gave me a maybe.