Wanted: Husband (ManxMan)

Chapter Ten

Rory doesn't want to sleep with us this night and I am still confused why. He just told me that he wanted to sleep with mum because they're going to call and talk to my sisters. Seriously, me and Rory can do it in our room, too.

But I told mum that when Rory is asleep, just call me and I'll carry him back to our room.

I don't want to sleep alone with Lucas.

I am sitting now on the floor in the movie room with canned beers next to me. I turn on the television and played some movie. I guess I need some beer to get me to sleep quicker so that I won't think of things especially Lucas.

I am mad at myself because even though I am mad at Lucas, I still have another feelings for him. I am afraid to acknowledge it to myself. I want to tell Rory everything. But I don't know how. I want to tell him the truth so Lucas can go. If that would happened, maybe my feelings for him will vanished and I will not suffer, too.

But, is that what I really want?

Thinking things made me realise that I almost drunk two cans and believe me, I couldn't understand the movie at all maybe because of the beer.

I was shocked when Lucas sat beside me with a can on his hand, too. He's not talking and his eyes were fixed on to the movie.

"Hey!" I elbowed him. "What are you doing here? I told you before that don't get near me or touch me if it isn't needed? Why are you here? Why?!"

He chugs the beer before turning to me. "I want to watch, too. Am I not allowed to watch?" Then he grabs another can from the floor and drink it straight.

"Why do you always get everything away from me! Even my beer! You are really a jerk!"

He ignored me. And that made me even angrier at him.

"Get out of here. I don't want to see you."

"You really that hate me, Lev?"

"Yes! I really hate you! Just leave me alone."

"If I leave tomorrow and not came back, will you be happier?"

He's leaving? I took my time thinking before saying, "Rory still needs you."

"But you want me to leave, right?" There was a pain in his voice.

I scanned his eyes and saw the pain pooling around them. What is his right to feel it? He's the one who did wrong. So I am so confuse why I am affected with his feelings. "You're drunk. You're being a drama queen."

"Are you going to miss after all of this?"

I grab one beer, open it then drink. "Why should I?"

He looks away from me and darted his eyes again on the television then he sighed. "I'm going to miss you."

He is like telling the truth.

"I'm going to miss Rory. I'm glad and happy that even if this is just temporary, I became his Papa and he became my son. I experienced how to be father. It's really good feeling, actually."

I know how it feels because I have Rory all my life, not literally. It's really feel good to have a kid hugging you, kissing you, playing with you and saying I love you every time. At first being a parent was just a responsibility but with Rory, it wasn't just responsibility but it was also joy.

"I'm going to miss you, Levy..."

I stare at him through the dim light that coming from the television. His features are somehow difficult to read. His eyes were fixed in front of him.

"I'm happy, Levy, even temporary, I was given a chance to be with you..." He paused looking back at me. "Again."

Levy, he's just drunk. Don't be stupid.

I look away not wanting to see me being affected with his words. I was done with him years ago. Done with his words. And done with his affection.

"I'm going to miss you, Levy." I can feel the intensity in his voice. It's like it is all real. It's all real from his heart. "I was thinking, maybe when I got back home, I'll feel different. I guess I can't live all by myself alone. Maybe I was going to expect a goodnight kiss and hug from Rory. Even saying I love you almost every time. And a mean husband..." He chuckles. "But I still want to see him every time."

"What are you talking about?" I asked flatly.

He's probably drunk...

"It's alright that you're angry or mad at me, Levy. I deserved it because I hurt you before. I'm so sorry, Levy. Believe it or not, I was hurt, too, when I hurt you."

With those words, I can feel my eyes starting to burn. "Why did you hurt me, Lucas?"

He didn't answered me.

"Lucas, why?!" I asked with gritted teeth.

"You were young. And we were young for love."

"That's why you chose someone else than me. Too young for love?" I shook my head. "Or too young to love genuinely? We shouldn't be talking the past anymore. It's doesn't matter to me our past. You are right, I was young. So we shouldn't get serious about what happened before. Let's forget it."

"Do you know the reason why I accepted to be Rory's Papa? It's not because of those clients you're mum offered. It's because of you, Levy."

I turn my sight to him and meet his eyes.

"I wanted to take this chance to be with you again." He said staring back at me.

The silence kept between us and I don't know if I should believe him. "You're just drunk, aren't you?"

"When we're drunk, we're excused to say and do odd things, right?"

To be honest, I felt disappointed.

I told you Levy. "Right."

"Then I'm drunk. I'm very drunk."

But before I could blink my eyes away from him, he captured my lips with his. I didn't make any move to stop him. His kiss was hungry and passionate. It was deliriously sweet. Memories of my first kiss came rushing through me. Even the emotions of that memories were brought back. I realized that I had missed his kiss. His kiss made me accept the screaming fact finally- I loved him.

I still love him.

I found myself kissing him back. I heard him groan. His kiss became more intensifying, more passionate and hungrier. And I liked it. I don't have the strength to ignore what he is doing.

I want this moment to be like this forever and never stopped.

I pulled away from him when a someone knock on the door. I pushed Lucas away and quickly got up then head to the door.

"Mum!" I had never felt that jumpy.

"Oh you're both here."

I pointed the television. "W-we were watching a movie."

"Okay. Rory is sleeping and I carried him to your room."

"Thanks, mum." I rushed through the hallway to our room.

I couldn't face Lucas after what we did...

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This chapter was supposedly this short because I want to let you know how Lucas and Levy feels for each other.

Actually, it was hard for me to defend Levy from you guys on how he should grow some balls and stand up against his mum for Rory.

Let's not forget that Rory is a smart kid. (A hint for the next chapter)

And by the way, two or three more chapters and this book will be done. In advance, THANK YOU GUYS FOR SUPPORTING ME AND MY BOOK!

As I replied to one of the comments on chapter nine- THIS IS MY FAVOURITE CHAPTER!!!

- archy xoxo
love lots •^.^•