*3 hours later*
"What the fuck are you doing" I heard, startling me waking me up.
"Get the fuck up" My dad was home early, but still drunk as usual. He slammed the door and took his shoes off. I tried to ignore the fact that he just yelled at me "why are you home so early?"
"I got kicked out of the bar, because I was being violent." He said not completing all of his words.
"Why are you laying on my fucking couch.? You have a bed don't you?"
"Yeah dad" He just got home and was already starting to piss me off..
So I grabbed my kitty and went back to my room, not wanting to deal with it anymore. I wanted Tony to come over and we could hang out. My dad would pass out anyways. So I texted him..
"Hey come on over, I'm bored and we needa make a plan soon, my address is 518 nw mill court. Come any time" As soon as I sent that I got a message right away. I got butterflies because I knew it would be him.
"Be there in 10 :)" I smiled as I read the text. I could use the company anyways. I would be alone for a long time, not that I'm never alone anyways. It's just nice to know that someone is there for you when you need them to be. I realized that I looked like shit. And I didn't feel the need to get all fancied up for Tony because if he says like he says he will then he will be seeing me looking like shit all the time. This baby will take all the strength and energy out of be and I don't nee to be worried about what I look like. My only worry from now on is this baby.
I know it's not going to be easy, but I feel like I am ready. Maybe not financially and physically ready, but emotionally and mentally ready...for now.
It wasn't long before I realized that I had gotten lost in my thought. Seven minutes had gone by and he would be here any moment. I on my bed closest to the window and waited to watch him pull up in his car. And three minutes later, like he promised he showed up. He got out of his car carrying a cup holder with two untouched drinks in it. One was blue and the other green.
I beat him to the door, because his hands looked full. He was actually caring a couple bags and drinks and a box.
"Hey" I said with a smile opening the screen door wide enough for him to slide in.
"Hey beautiful" I'm sure he just said that to make me feel slightly better.
"Bedrooms this way" I said leading him to my room.
After we got in there I locked the door behind him. And he laid the things he carried in on my dresser.
"I brought you some stuff" He said handing me the blue slushy. How did he know my favorite color is blue.? And then he handed me the little baggies. Inside one were some little snacks and inside the other was little baby things. Like socks, bibs, and pacifiers. And lastly he handed me the box. Which had maternity clothes in them.
"Will I really get this big.?" I said more unprepared than I thought I was.
"Yes, but then he or she is born, you will understand that It was worth it." He said with a reassuring smile.
"I hope" I hugged him tightly and we sat facing each other on my bed to talk. We talked about a lot of different things.
"So, what exactly are you wanting to do.?" I was extremely curious, did he want me to stay in it's life, which I was already planning to do.?
Or was he planning on just taking my baby and raising him/her by himself.
"Well, what are you wanting.?" He look deeply into my eyes.
"I wan't to be in it's life, I want to be there for my baby. I want it to know that despite my past, I will and do, do everything that I can for him/her." I look down holding my lower stomach. Not having a bump yet but acknowledging that there is a baby there.
"I will be here and help you through everything" He said putting his hand on top of mine.
"I just wish Chaz didn't put me through this.." I said getting teary eyed.
Tony pulled me closer to him and hugged me. I looked up at him and told him that it was getting late and that he had to get home because my mom was going to be home. So he got up and grabbed his stuff, and started walking to the living room.
Before he opened the front door he turned to me and gave me a really tight hug. And I returned it with a kiss on the cheek.
"Thank you for today Tony" I gave him another hug and let him go. He walked to his car and started it, giving me one last wave he drove off.
*Now is the time i'd like to give a shout out to my best friend Amanda Johnson for being supportive and for reading my unfinished books :) Love you girly.!!!*
