Drugs

alone, drunk and high

I woke up with a pounding headache.

"Fuck." I muttered.

I tried to lift myself off the bed but it felt like gravity was against me.

"Stay in bed." I heard a voice say.

I looked in front of me and had to squint my eyes to see it was ashton. The sun coming from my window was almost enough to blind me.

"What are you doing here?" I asked my voice feeling sore.

"You went to a party last night I assume and I saw you walking alone, drunk and high. So I helped you get home."

I stayed quiet and layed back down.

Ashamed that he saw me in that state.

I felt like a bad influence to him. I hardly know the kid but he's much brighter than I am. I want him to stay that way.

It went silent between us. If I didn't know any better I'd think he left.

I felt the bed sink.

"Why do you do this to yourself?" He asked. His eyes beginning to get watery like he was going to cry.

"Because."

"Because what?"

"It makes me feel alive." I responded honestly.

"But you're not dead."

"Not yet."

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lol rewritten because I did it wrong the first time.