'Second Chances' -Kevin x rev!Eddward

Chapter Three - 'Heated Words of an Eye Opener'

Character(s) in Chapter: Kevin Barr, Nathan Kedd Goldberg, Eddward Double D Rockwell, r!Plank

Character Mention in Chapter: Johnny, Jim Barr, Nazz

Things to Know: This chapter has drug talk and use in minor and party gone bad.

I felt a lot better after my break down on the phone with my bestfriend. It was kinda silly that the talk after that had died and we just kept on singing songs I had written for the past years until she had to go. After we had hung up, I crawled up with Nats pillow and closed my eyes. My mind was a lot clearer to what I needed and what I wanted to do. Yet I was still unsure what I was going to do.

Getting up I made my way to Nat's little cramped bathroom to take a nice hot shower. I felt like a girl when I got out over an hour later, fingers and feet pruned like dried fruit. It had felt so damn good to have hot ass water pouring down my body as it eased the sore muscles. But, it was getting late and my son's bedtime was approaching a little faster than I had realized. So, getting dried off and dressed I made my way up the basement stairs and into the house to find him.

It was in the living room they both were engrossed in a Tv show. It was cute to see Nat sitting on the end of the couch staring at the cactus on the scene as he listened to the documentary guy speak about their life in the desert as my son sat on the floor on his blanket with his cactus stuffy and a look of awe on his face.

"Exciting stuff Nat?" I teased as I sat down.

"Man oh man, hell yes. Did you know . . ."

Whatever he said after that went over my head as, "bluh, bluh, bluh" as I stared out the window to across the street. His house was dark, except for the porch light that had been left on to welcome him home, whenever that was. It made me ask the silly questions; if the house was lonely waiting for him to return home once again and if it was lonelier after his leave the first time. It hadn't had anybody living in it since a month later, due to D's father moving out to live his new life. That thought brought on new questions, questions that angered me and saddened me.

"Earth to man of thoughts, it's getting late, shame on your daddy skills, bro."

I looked over at him when he spoke and just stared. He was wearing a pair of sleepy baby blue Pj's, his signature goofy grin and his hair was all over the place like he'd been sleeping in bed and just woken up. No matter how cute I thought it might be I frowned, for no reason other than his words. "Dude his name was 'the thinker' not 'man of thoughts', but nice try and yeah they are."

I know my words had wiped that look off his face in wonder to what I was thinking, but at the moment I could care less. I got up and walked the short distance to my son who was rubbing his tired eyes, trying his hardest to fight sleep so he could stay up and watch the show. But, I know it wouldn't last. As soon as he was picked up and wrapped in my arms it was like a switched had been flipped and he was out like a light. This made everything I'd been through worth it. To look down and see my sleeping sons face, feeling safe and loved in my arms. I was his world and nobody else matter to him, but me.

Kevin awake from his sleep, arms protectively around his sons sleeping form. He didn't understand what had woken him at first. He know he was a light sleeping now that he had a kid, but that's not what had woken him this time. No, it was the outside noise that had awaken his sleeping brain. He could hear engines, quite a few and people laughing. They were noisy, but not so much that he be angry they wake his kid. It was wired, he hadn't heard noise like this since he had became a dad, there wasn't time for things like that. It was always work and being a dad, well you couldn't call his work, work since both jobs were fun and exciting to him. One had him working with mechanics and the other was a gig at a bar not far as a weekend entertainment.