'Second Chances' -Kevin x rev!Eddward

Chapter Four - 'New Fears and a Blooming Love'

Character(s) in Chapter: Kevin Barr, Nathan Kedd Goldberg, Nazz, Eddward Double D Rockwell

Character Mention in Chapter: Johnny, r!Plank

Things to Know: After fight blood and fixings of wound via criminal methods described and not, mental emotions of gun fear and a lot of cussing.

I didn't know what exactly was happening or where I was. I just know that somewhere in the fog there was a soft voice that sounded like it was about to break at any moment. I didn't understand why I was hearing this song being played over and over in the same choppy broken tone. I had never heard it before, that much I was sure of. The voice so muffled I couldn't make out a tone to pick just who it was, but it really didn't matter because it gave me a comforting feeling to hear it. It was like this sad, sad melody I kept hearing was guiding me through a dark, foggy place of hidden fears. Yet all the same, it drew tears to my cheeks, because it had such an overwhelming force that dropped upon my emotions like a bike being crushed under the wheels of a truck.

"What we're all those dreams . . . those many years ago? What were all those plans . . made now left beside the road? Behind . . in the road. More than friends I always pledged, cause friends they come and go. People change, as does everything. I wanted to grow . . I just wanted to grow . . . . up next to me. I'm just a human being. I will take the blame, but just the same, this is not me. You see, believe. I'm better than this. Don't leave me so cold. I'm buried beneath the stones. I just wanted to hold on I know I'm worth your love. . . . It's my fault now having caught a sickness . . How it pain .. . leave you . . . on your own. Just don't let me go. Help me see myself, cause I can no longer tell. Looking out from the inside of the bottom of a well, it's hell, I yell . . . one hears me before I disappear, whisper in my ear. Give me something to . . . in my unknown future's. My dear . . . the end . . . comes near . . . I'm here . . . but not much longer."

When the voice finally pulled me from the dark and the light in front of me brought me to an unknown place, I sat up and screamed. My arms outstretched like my hands were trying to catch that song. It was like my security blanket to my fears, now it was slowly fading away, and I would be alone again.

Suddenly a hand was brought to my mouth covering the screams and I was gently grabbed in a chocking hug. At first, I struggled to get away. But when I felt the wetness on my face and heard the soft sobbing in my ear I tried to calm down. The arms wrapping around me had a flittering warmth that told me it was ok. They however were completely different from those arms in my hazy dark. Those arms were burning hot, they surrounded my whole being in a blanket just like that voice. They screamed safe, they screamed secure of protection and love.

These arms were ok for now. They told me it was cool to let that sad melody disappear and after a bit of just laying there my body settled down into warm fuzzy static. Letting a choked sob out I looked over to face just who was holding me. Watery eyes of my best friend Nat met mine, he smiled, and I stared at him, before moving my gaze up to see Nazz standing and staring at me, a serious look on her face.

It was strange even though I should be asking what the hell was going on, why I was crying, being held by an emotional Nathan and being calmly watched by Nazz. The thing that popped into my blurry mind was Double D and when I opened my mouth to speak it barely came above a whisper. "E-edd"

I felt my best friend relax his hold, before he let go and looked over at me as he wiped his tears. He said nothing, like I thought he would. It was Nazz who spoke. "Dude, he's fine Kev. It's all good with him. You're the one were worried about. How could you be so reckless and stupid dude?"

I was going to ask why when I suddenly felt a hand in my hair and I glanced up to see Nathan was the reason for fingers rubbing my scalp. To tell you it was weird would be an understatement. We were close, yeah, but it was a little unnerving to see him treat me like I would break. I was about to ask when Nazz answered my confused look.