Reconcile [NO UPDATES]

19. Final

Excuse the mistakes.

A week later

Rosa

Chris has been planning secret trips for about a week now, I swear if he's cheating on me there will be no coming back from this. I've asked him about it but he says it's nothing to be worried about and that he's just working on some more music. Sometimes I just don't know what to believe anymore, I don't want to get hurt again. And I'm not the one to sit around and let him get away with it neither, so as soon as he gets home, I'm gonna ask him about it.

I want him to be in Jamie's life, she's gotten to know him so much and she loves him and all of his friends. She loves his music, only the ones I let her listen to, not the inappropriate ones. But anyways it was going on seven and he still wasn't home, he said he would be here soon. Good, since Jamie is spending the night at Angela's moms house cause this is really her last weekend here in LA, I can yell at him if needed. We all know her mom will be back though, she loves it here.

"Babe I'm here!" Chris yelled walking through the door. I was sitting at the kitchen table just looking through my phone, "Damn where everybody at? It's like a fuc.. Hey babe" Chris announced his presence in the room.

"Hey" I said dryly not bothering to look at him.

"What you do today? Jamie at Angela's moms house? She loves going over there, shit she might like her more than us" He chuckled rummaging through the fridge until he got some juice.

"Cleaned, yes, no she doesn't" I got straight to the point as I scrolled down my Instagram feed.

"Coo" He said nonchalantly sitting across from me, he got real quiet for a second. "Something wrong? Why you so quiet?"

"No, why?"

"Well, for one you haven't looked at me once since I walked in here. Two you're usually all over me" He said jokingly about the last one.

I pulled my eyes off my phone and looked at him, taking in all his features. He looks good, he wasn't wearing anything special, but he still looked good. I watched him as he took sips from his bottle of water, he didn't notice me looking at first until he turned his head towards me. Then he gave me a huge smile while winking at me. I couldn't help the little smirk that formed on my face.

"Why can't that smile be bigger? Are you mad at me?" He asked moving closer towards me.

Ask him..

"No I'm not mad at you. But.. Where you been? I missed you" I finally put my phone down and leaned my head on his shoulder.

"I love you" He kissed the top of my head. "I've been at the studio, working on a few songs" He said.

When he pulled back I got a whiff of a female's perfume. It damn sure wasn't mine, and it smelled cheap. I thought I could trust him.

Well I guess I thought wrong.

"Why do you smell like that?" I pulled back, looking at him with furrowed eyebrows.

He began humming, then got up and walked away from me. Of course I followed in his footsteps, is he really just gonna ignore me like that? We kept walking all around the house, until I stopped him in the kitchen.

"Are you cheating on me?" I managed to ask.

He turned around and looked at me with sadness and guilt in his eyes. That's when I knew he did do it. Before I could walk away he grabbed me by my arms and pulled me in his chest, I just stood there with no emotion.

"I'm sorry.. Baby I'm so sorry" He said choking back tears.

"So.. You was just gonna come in here and kiss up on me when you were kissing on another bitch? You ain't shit" I said pulling away from him.

"I didn't kiss her, she just gave me head. Don't do this to me again, I love you. It was a mistake, I swear it will never ever happen again" He pleaded.

"Nah I told you, I won't go through this again with you. I'll find a man that loves and appreciates me for who I am" I said walking up to my bedroom.

Chris

I don't know what I was thinking with that girl, not just any girl but my assistant. I'm a terrible person, boyfriend and dad. Not only did I ruin my relationship between Rosa and I but I just fucked up my relationship with my daughter. Now she won't be able to see me as much as she used to. I doubt Rosa would keep me away from Jamie but still. She's so used to me being over here so much.

I followed Rosa up to her room and she was calmly packing my clothes away, she was even folding them. She's too calm right now so I know she's so serious about this, she'll never want to be with me again.

"Baby, I said I was sorry" I said reaching out for her arm but she snatched away quickly.

"You wasn't sorry when you was fucking that bitch, Who is she? That hoe from the studio?" She folded her arms across her chest. "And you know sorry don't make it right Chris"

"Yeah, it was her. I know it doesn't. What can I do to make this better?" I put my head down.

"You can finish packing and leave my house" She said quietly pushing past me out the room.

So I did as she asked, I finished packing and started bringing my stuff out to the car. When I was bringing the last bag out the house I saw Rosa sitting on the floor in front of the couch lighting up a blunt. I want so bad to go back in time and turn down Brielle, What the fuck was I even thinking messing her? Especially when Rosa gave me everything.

I walked up to her giving her one last kiss on her forehead, she just stared at the blank TV screen as I walked backwards taking one last look at her. Can't lie I am really in my feelings, a few tears slipped out my eyes.

I love her but I have to let her go, I can't keep hurting her like this.

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