Incapable of loving you

Chapter 11

Meek sat looking at his pool with a blunt in his hand slowly watching the sun rise. This was his 3rd blunt since he got done swimming. In his head he was supposed to be Ruthless and not give a fuck. He had shot people before but it was different watching them die. He took a long drag from the blunt slowly numbing hisself.  Everytime he thought about it he took a shot of henessy and pushed it to the back of his mind. He had a show tonight actually a festival so he tried to focus on the words of the new song he was gonna debut but he felt like he was going crazy . Voices in his head were doing a number on him. His conscience was getting the best of him

Meek- SHUT UP !

He screamed holding his head at this point he was sweating. He took another long drag of his blunt and held it in . He blew it out threw his nose. He looked down at the paper the words he played the beat on his phone and started to practice.

Meek- It really hurt me when they killed Shotty I was locked down in my cell and I had to read about it
And when they killed Diddy, left him out in Philly

He paused and took another drag of his blunt reading the lyrics and getting back on beat

Meek- We was young and gettin' money, man we used to run the city
We was rockin' all them shows, fuckin' all them hoes. And when they killed Darryl, Renee had to see him froze on the ground. Downtown, I can hear the sounds now

He stopped rapping the words and just listened to the beat. Nodding his head not really being able to focus. He went back inside his house putting the roach of his blunt in the ash tray. He got in the shower washing his hair and stepping out he checked his phone Nicki called twice . He called her back on FaceTime I sat there wet in my towel.

Meek pov-

Nicki - Goodmorning baby

She said biting her lip

Meek- wassup what you doing ?

Nicki- Waiting for you to come over getting to know jaden a little better.

Meek- oh yeah did you make your decision?

I put the phone in the bed getting the bottle of pills of my dresser and took 3 for my headaches. I picked the phone up and looked at her .

Nicki- Ima go back to school. Long as I can earn my money any you not give it to me .

Meek- Cool I'll make the call later

Nicki- you okay? Your eyes look kinda red

She picked up the phone looking at me closely. Putting down the spatula she had in her hand.

Meek- Yeah I'm good just a little tired

She squinted staring at me I chuckled.

Meek- I'm good nic I promise

She nodded

Nicki- so did you make your decision about Jaden ?

Meek- Honestly I feel like we should put him in foster care but if he gone have a good home with your friend then that's even better. He needs a family.

Nicki- Great !

She smiled

Nicki- I'll tell sherika .

Meek- you coming to my show tonight

Nicki- if you want me too

My phone buzzed getting a text from coon my manager.