We Are A Family

Chapter 11

The day finally came, I remember being rushed to the hospital; I kept crying in pain. The nurses put me in a wheel chair and I was going through double doors, CC was at my side; his hand holding tightly onto mine. He kept reassuring me that I was going to be fine and to just breath, I was placed on the bed; and I was ordered to push, all I could do was scream. It felt like I was being murdered from the inside out, the pain was too unreal for me to handle; I remember the sound of my baby crying, I remember the doctor announcing it was a girl.. I remember.
My heart stopping.
I remember the feeling of a strong pressure going through my body, I remember a voice telling me to wake up; that it was too soon for me to go out like this.
I remember seeing my grandparents smiling at me, and then I woke up.

Its been three days since Lily Marie was brought into our world, its been three days since CC and the guys went back on tour.
I was left alone again, CC was hardly going to see his daughter; and me..
I sat in the wheel chair by the window, I had to stay in this for the next couple of month's; the doctor told me something had happened during the birth and that I needed to remain off my feet for a bit. I looked at my sleeping daughter, she had medium brown hair and dark brown eyes; she was beautiful.
I hummed softly, I smiled softly seeing a small smile appear on Lily's face; she was dreaming of something wonderful.
Shay walked into the room with a smile, she knelt down in front of us then gently rubbed Lily's head; I watched as Lily's face changed into a more uncomfortable one and that was when the crying began.
"Shh.. its okay." I said in a calm voice, I wasn't able to walk around like I wanted too.
I sighed, Shay removed Lily from me as she began to rock her and calm her down; I smiled softly watching my best friend holding my daughter.
I glanced to the front door, I was ready for it to open and for CC to walk in to hold his baby. All of those talks about us being a great family, how will this happen when he's not even here with us..
This was going to be tough.

On my twentieth birthday, I was removed from the wheelchair and CC and the guys were still not back; I stood at the fireplace with Lily frowning.
Kayla was on the couch singing to Alex and Mark was watching the two, it made me jealous; my husband should be here as well..
I glanced to the door hearing someone knock on it, sighing; I walked over to the door opening it to only grin seeing Ricky there. Inviting him inside, Lily was removed from my arms and Ricky was grinning at her.
"She's already getting so big." He told me as I rolled my eyes with a smile.
"She's only three months, Ricky." I said with my arms crossed smiling.
Ricky looked to me amused before looking to Lily. "She's still getting big!" He exclaimed which only startled both Alex and Lily causing the cousins to start crying hysterically.
Kayla gave a frustrated sigh before trying to calm Alex back down, Ricky gave her an apologetic look as Mark chuckled softly.
"You can't get mad at an excited person over babies." He told his wife.
Kayla rolled her eyes then resumed to calm her son down.
Ricky began to rock Lily until she stopped crying then fell into sleep world.
I smiled softly with my arms crossed.

The moment Lily was born, Ricky took every chance he had to come over to see us; they didn't have to go on tour until next year sometime, so he had plenty of time to watch Lily grow.
I was sad to admit this, but he was being more of a parent than CC was.. I haven't heard from him since they left three days ago, none of the guys contacted me; except for once and that Ashley checking up on us.
When Ricky, Kayla Mark and their son left; it was just me and Lily. Shay went out with Jayy and Sally for a bit, and Jace was still at Jack's.
Jack offered for Jace to come stay with him for a bit until I got settled down with Lily, it was a big help too. Jack was quite the big brother when he wanted to be, I looked at Lily with a soft smile.
"Your daddy will be home in a month or so.. hopefully less, just know; that he loves you very much." I said.
Lily's eyes slowly opened as she looked at me, her small thumb placed in her mouth as she began to blow bubbles; I laughed softly holding onto her.
"Ready for a bath and then bed?" I asked her.
Lily giggled and we were heading up the stairs.

Two years later, there were two little toddlers playing in the living room; I sat on the couch with Kayla smiling softly; I glanced to her now, pregnant stomach as she watched her son play with the blocks with my daughter.
"I guess you didn't want your kid's ages to be too apart?" I asked.
Kayla rolled her eyes holding a grin. "I think it would be good for Alex, despite the hell we go through; it'd be worth it." She told me.
I watched as Lily wobbled over to her stuffed horse as I smiled softly. "I don't think I want another one for a bit.." I said, its been two years and I still remember my near death.
Kayla glanced to me before laughing softly. "I just want two kids, I don't think I could have more than two." She said.
I rose a brow. "Hm." I said.
I frowned when Lily bumped into the stand and the flower pot began to wobble, my eyes grew wide as it fell, Lily was swooped up quickly but CC; I was standing at this point with a worried expression.
Lily was laughing as CC looked to me. "You need to move the plants somewhere else, before one of the kids get hurt." He told me.
I glared softly. "Why don't you move them? I didn't know Lily was going to bump into the stand." I hissed.
CC glared, he handed Lily over to me before grabbing the flower pot; walking to the front door. He literally through it out the front door.
"CHRISTIAN COMA!" I snapped.
Lily and Alex covered their ears, Kayla ushered the kids into a different room then closed the door behind her.
CC turned to me sharp as I glared. "Are you freaking kidding me!? Clean the mess up!" I snapped.
CC walked up to me in a fast motion, his hand risen; anger filled his eyes. I stood there with a glare.
"Hit me, I fucking dare you." I spat.

The blow never came, instead; arms were wrapped around me. CC's face buried in my stomach, he was shaking.
I wasn't going to pity this, he threatened to hit me; he's been drinking more lately and he was scaring our daughter.
"I'm sorry.." Was all he said to me, I stood there stiff; I wasn't going to fall into his hold. Nope, nope, no..
I frowned, falling into his hold; my arms around his neck as I frowned.
"Is this what the kind of parents we're going to be? To argue over the small things.. to fight in front of our kids?" I asked him.
CC lifted his head as he looked at me. "No, I don't know what came over me.. is Lily okay?" He asked.
I frowned, giving a soft shrug; I stood back to my feet holding a soft glare.
I headed to the door where the kids and my sister were, I motioned him to follow.
For a split second, I really had wished Ricky or Jayy were here; instead of CC.