We Are A Family

Chapter 03

It's been three month's since we tried for a baby, Kayla only has six months left and her baby will be here; everyone was getting excited and prepared for the idea of a baby. Sammi and the girls were helping my sister plan out baby names and if she had a girl her name would be Elizabeth and if it was a boy, his name would be Alexander. The names were adorable sounding, and all Mark would do was coo over the idea of having a baby; he kept announcing his unborn baby was going to his world and either his little prince or princess. Typical dad stuff.
Due to feeling ill for the past few days, I finally decided to take a trip to the doctor to see why I've been feeling sick. I sat in the waiting room watching toddlers playing in the toy area and the mothers rocking their babies, I felt left out; it looked like a lot of fun but I knew it was a lot of work..
"Mrs.Coma?" A nurse called from behind the door holding a clip board, removing myself from the chair I walked over to the door with a soft smile, she returned one opening the door further for me to walk in.
"Just follow me." She stated before walking down the hall until she made it into a room, she opened the door with a smile.
"Just wait in here, the doctor will be with you shortly." She instructed.
I looked at her with a nod, I decided on taking a seat on the bed; the last time I came to the doctor was a few month's back when this bad cold got out and I ended up catching it. According to the doctor, I came just in time or I could have died; the idea of death terrifies me.
I looked at the door that opened revealing a tall man, slicked back brown hair; prescription glasses and his doctor coat.
"How are we feeling today Mrs.Coma?" He asked looking at the papers on the clip board.
Clearing my throat, I sat up straight.
"I haven't been feeling the best these last couple of days, I don't know if its the flu or a cold or what.." I murmured.
The doctor looked at me with a smile. "Well, I guess its up to me to figure out this little problem now isn't it?" He asked in a joking manner.
I grinned softly with a nod, I had the same doctor Jinxx had and the doctor enjoyed both of our visits; we always managed to find a way to make it fun.
He took out his heart thingy pressing it to my chest then moved it around, I tensed at the cold metal touching me; he moved it away then grabbed the blood pressure thing; wrapping it around my upper arm he began to press the button until it tightened around my arm.
After the little check up, the doctor had asked me about my personal life with CC and mentioned pregnancy; when I told him we tried twice and nothing happened. He got out a monitor to scan my stomach with the x-ray machine.
I felt my heart stop when he removed his glasses then looked more closely at the screen, he swallowed before giving me a weak smile.
"Please excuse me, I'll be right back." He said before escaping from the room.
I sat there in slight panic. What was wrong? Why did he look panicked??

When he returned, a different doctor and a nurse were behind him; they looked at the screen then to me. The female nurse looked at me then to the doctor with a sad expression, I sat there with worried eye.
The doctor that was not mine looked at me with a frown, "Mrs.Coma, there is no other way to say this.." He looked at me with the most serious expression.
When the words left his mouth, tears filled my eyes and I felt paralyzed.
I slowly removed myself from the table, I exited the hallway and clinic; I walked over to my car.
I opened the door then took a seat, I felt numb; sick even.
I looked into the rear view mirror at the double doors that opened then closed, buckling my seat beat; I backed up then drove away.
How was I going to tell CC this? How was I going to tell anyone this? I felt the tears burning my eyes, I can't have a break down; not here.. not while I'm driving.
I looked to the park that held the nearby trail I used to walk in the mornings, I drove into the parking lot; got out then headed into the trail.
My arms were dangling at my sides, I felt empty; I watched as a mother rode her bike with her daughter down the trail going past me laughing.
I stopped walking, I looked at the ground as I fell to my knees; I brought my hands into the front of my face and hair, I pulled back my hair as I screamed with tears falling freely now.
"THIS ISN'T FAIR, WHAT DID I EVER DO TO DESERVE SUCH CRUELTY!? WAS IT BECAUSE I NEVER WENT TO CHURCH!? THAT I GOT MARRIED TO A MAN TWELVE YEARS OLDER THAN ME!? What did I do.. why me? Please answer me!" I yelled through angry tears not even caring that people were stopping and staring at me.

I stayed on my knees for what seemed like twenty minutes, I knew this break down wasn't done.. how are the guys or girls going to react? Do they even need to know this? I don't want to hurt CC or depress the band..
When I made it home, the guys were out in the yard playing with a a frisbee; when CC saw me he smiled and I felt my heart break even further, he walked over to me; bringing me into a hug and quick kiss. I forced a weak smile.
CC frowned looking at me. "What's wrong Haley?" He asked.
That question.. my heart felt like it stopped, I looked at him as tears filled my eyes even more.
Shay was at my side with a concerned look. "Haley? Talk to us, whats wrong?" She asked
I looked at her as tears fell from my eyes.
"I had a miscarriage.." I spoke out as the wind began to blow heavy.