The bad boy's broken princess(On Hold)

Chapter 17

Zack was still staring at me with his eyes wide. I kept quiet for a moment, allowing him to absorb all the information that i just told him. I don't know how long we sat like that. We just stared at each other but then finally after what felt like forever, Zack spoke up.

"You have an older brother?" he sounded confused. He's eyebrows bunched together and he looked so cute when he was confused. Focus Sam

"Had" i corrected him but nodded nonetheless. It's still hard to talk about him. There was no one there for me to talk to when he died. Everyone shut me out, leaving me to grieve alone.

"Why didn't you tell me?" he sounded hurt. But why would he feel hurt?

"Everyone knows. But i guess it was nice talking to someone that never looked at me with sympathy or pity in their eyes"

"But i don't remember you having a brother. At Cam's birthday that one year, he wasn't there?"

"He had something on with he's friend that weekend. Actually it was a vacation that he's friend's family went on but he begged he's parents to invite Axel. Cam was pissed that he never showed up but he came the next weekend"

"You cared alot about him, didn't you?"

"He was my brother, of-cause i did. He was my best friend aside from Cam and Aid. I was always closer to Axel, we use to do everything together" i was smiling at the memories that were busy replaying in my mind. But of-cause a tear had to escape. I wiped it away before Zack could notice.

"You do know that you didn't kill your brother, right?"

"I did, it's my entire fault. He wanted to leave because he had a date with his girlfriend. But i kept nagging to him for us to stay a little bit longer. He cancelled his date to stay with me. I ruined his life" i felt the tears that were threatened to fall. It's my entire fault.

"It's the guy who shot Axel. That killed him, not you. Don't blame yourself Sam. You did nothing wrong. Someone else is responsible, not you"

He's hands cupped both my cheek. He was so close to me, our noses and foreheads touching and our lips only inches apart. I could feel his breath against my mouth. All i had to do was lift my head up and our lips would crash together.

In that moment, i forgot about everything, about my problems. I just wondered what his lips would feel like against mine. What his hands would feel like against other parts of body.

"Sam" he whispered my name with so much longing. I didn't even realise that my eyes were closed. I opened them to stare into intense chocolate brown eyes.

I pulled back not liking the fact that we were so close but also hating myself for pulling away. I really don't understand myself.

"So you need to tell me about street fighting" i said, my voice sounded hoarse but i coughed trying to cover up the fact that he made me nervous.

Zack noticed my change of subject but did nothing but smile in return.

"Well what do you want to know?" he asked

"Everything" i shrugged

"Well firstly you are not allowed to tell anyone. Not even Cameron" he said while crossing he's arms over his chest.

"i wasn't going to" i tried to reply as calmly as i could but the way he's muscles were flexing under he's tight shirt was making me nervous. You can't blame me though; i mean the guy was hot after all.

"Good. And I'm guessing that it was Alex who told you about this"

It wasn't aquestion but i nodded nonetheless.