My Secrets ~ GerPan

Chapter 5

I slowly crept back into the house through the window. I looked around my room for any sign that someone may have been there.

Nothing.

Grabbing some bandages from my desk drawer, I wrapped my wings in them again. I flopped down on my bed and sighed. What would dad do? What would mom do when he told her? I guess I'll just have to wait and find out.

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The next morning went I went downstairs for breakfast I could practically feel the tension with my bare hands. Silence carried on throughout the morning until my mom finally asked why my father and I were being so quiet. Looks like he didn't tell her after all.

"It's nothing dear," my father said, faking a smile.

"Don't lie, Sebastian. I know something's wrong," she crossed her arms as she spoke, "You and Ludwig have been awfully quiet the whole morning!"

"Ludwig's queer, Marie!" he exclaimed. My mother's eyes widened and looked at me with disappointment. "I didn't tell you because I didn't think you could live with the shame."

I almost let out a sob at that, but I had to be strong.

"...Ludwig? Is this true?" her sweet voice was now laced with disgust. I nodded while trying to keep my face down. I couldn't let them see I was crying. But I thought too soon.

"Look at that! The fairy's already crying." I stood up and quickly made my way to my room. Or at least I tried.

My dad grabbed me by the back of my shirt and flung me backwards. I didn't have time to catch myself, so I hit my head hard on the side of the table.

"Get up," my dad spat. I tried, but the pain in the back of my head was burning. "I said, get up you faggot!" I slowly made myself stand only to be knocked back down by my father's strong punch. My mom flinched but didn't make a move to stop him.

He kicked my back just where my wings were and I made a cry of pain. I made a few efforts to get up and run, but every time I tried he'd either punch me again or kick me in the ribs. I thought It would never end until I heard the door open. The person's signature laugh echoed through the house.

"Hallo familie! I'm back for Christmas break, so let's get this party started!" he stopped laughing once he got to the kitchen.

"Bruder?" I could barely say the words.

"Oh my God. Ludwig what-" Gilbert choked.

"You never told us when you'd get back Gilbert," my dad said as if everything was all right.

"I-I wanted it to be a s-surprise." he stared at me the whole time as he said it. I noticed his hands shaking. I suddenly thought about how bloody my face must look. He dropped his backpack and ran to me. Getting on his knees I finally noticed the tears in his eyes.

"What do you think you're doing?!" he yelled at our father. "And you! You're just standing there letting him kill your son!" he turned towards our mother.

"Get away Gilbert. He's gay." said our father harshly.

"I know that! I've known for quite some time too! Just because he prefers people of the same sex doesn't mean you can beat him like this!

"It's unnatural Gilbert! It's against the will of God! It terrifies me that my son chose to do this."

"It's not a fucking choice dad! He was born like that! Just like I was born attracted to both men and women!" Out of the corner of my eye I saw our dad kick Gilbert square in the nose. He fell right next to me.

"Gil, it's OK. I'll be fine" I whispered.

"No, Ludwig. I'll hold him off you run." he jumped up and punched him. "Run, Lud! Now!"

And I did.

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A/N: Sorry this update took so long! But the next chapter might be up later today so stay tuned!