Always ( Cameron Dallas )

9

Melissa

I try sticking out my tongue and pulling at my ears to get Christian to laugh or show a bit of a toothless grin, but I prove unsuccessful.

Ever since last night Cameron willingly had Dylan drop of Christian to spend the day with me, just the day.

After I stayed with my legs around Cameron's waist and holding him to me as he sat on the ground for nearly an hour.

He proclaimed that he had a childish moment or insecurity and was fine but I know by the way he clung to me he meant other wise. Cam thanked me for being there but within five minutes had enough of me and left for a 'meeting'.

Here I am sitting on the floor with Christian in his walker and nothing showing one bit of emotion towards me.

Is this what I get for 21 hours of labour pushing him out of a whole where babies heads shouldn't be popped out of?

I think he is getting his personality off his father but my good looking genes.

When he frowns and his eyebrows knot together exactly like Cameron does when I try to blow on his arms.

Yes defiantly Cameron.

My phone starts ringing besides me and I for a moment think it's Cameron and my chest flutters till I notice is Mia.

"Hey." I answer.

I haven't spoken to her since the incident and I am scared to what he has to say about the whole situation.

"I need a drink." She starts off with a tired expression.

"You can come over, Christian is with me!" I cheer.

Mia grunts before continuing, "I mean a night out on the town, with my girl. I sort of kinda miss you, just a little bit."

"Aren't we told old for that?" I laugh.

"We're not even above the age of 25." She says in a monotone, "Plus I believe it's someone birthday really really soon."

Only 22 and I feel like my soul is one of a hundred year old women who had endured everything.

"I would love to but I have Christian and I want to spend so much time with him. Even if he won't laugh, smile or give me any expression, till Cameron comes." I tell her.

"Are you sure you have Christian not Cameron?" She asks with a serious tone before continuing, "besides Dylan is coming at 5 to take him to Cameron again."

"Mia can you be honest with me?" I question.

"Aren't I always would be a shitty sister slash best friend slash sister in law slash lesbian lover?"

"Do you think Cameron will come back to me." I whisper I think my voice is so low I can't even remember hearing them leave my mouth.

Mia sighs heavily and I close my eyes as I feel a slight blurt vision heading to cascading tears

"Doesn't he, always."

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"Bye baby." I kiss Christian's forehead as he squirms closer into Dylan's chest. 

"Glad your going out with Mia don't think can handle her any longer without her having a release." He jokes strapping Chris in his seat.

"Wish me luck then." I laugh as he waves off once he gets in the car.

Time to get ready then and draw on a face that doesn't read, nearly divorced- depressed- baby weight not completely gone- lonely and I love my ex and son like no tomorrow.