Always ( Cameron Dallas )

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I'm really unsure to why people think I'm targeting them and being a bully!  I will defend my book and how I wrote it till the end. So don't message telling me my book is shit (yes people are) and start saying Melissa is a slut and what happens to doesn't happen in real life? Like tf ? Open your eyes to the real world !! 

My book is my writings!!!!!

I haven't been writing because I'm scared to! I don't want people to yell at me for not understand them because I do and we all have crosses to carry! I feel so alone and no one to talk to because none of my friends know of this book and i have no one to express this to.

Thank you for the people who support me constantly and have open arms! Xx

Cameron

I've been staring at the hotel ceiling and been drinking everything I've found, trying to hold on to the sweetest feeling but nothing can stop even the darkest feeling.

I don't think I've ever acted out in such desperation and reject to someone, not even in my darkest hour during my juvenile age.

My emotion is brought on by the anger and previous lost of my other child which Melissa knows of. I had given up everything when I was in Texas to be a father to a woman I did not love at the age of 17 and when I was responsible for the death that broke me completely.

I hide the fact that I was somehow responsible for the leading death to my baby; I didn't stay true to my vows and left my wife when she needed me more. I should of taken care of her, demanded her attention and not put everything first. Melissa should of come first to me. My first priorities shouldn't of been her and making a family together; that was one of the reasons I married her so I feel worth something and I could accomplish something in my life.

Though I didn't ever need a partner; that was until I met her. Instead of feeling lust, I feel love. Instead of feeling hatred, I felt love. Instead of being angry, I felt loving.

Melissa will never no how much it took me to say ' I love you ', they are the hardest to words to every day to someone you love.

They leave you open once you reveal them; to heartache, infection and destruction.

Melissa 

I made my way up to the front desk of the lobby and flashed a smile to the young man behind the counter.

"How can I help you?" He say shakily and I notice his name is Peter.

"Peter, my husband has booked a room for us and unlucky for me I don't have a key and he is in a very important meeting. I was wondering if I can have a set?" I try my best begging rich wife face.

"What was the room booked under Mrs..?"

"Dallas" I respond, "Cameron Dallas was the booking."

He seems to be concentrating hard on the computer and finally double clicks on something.

"May I see identification?" He kindly asks and I pass him my updated drivers license.

Peter studies it briefly before passing me a key card, "Top floor number 1." He instructs pointing me to the elevators and I thank him before scurrying off.

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Once I reach his floor I tap the key against the door and it opens, revealing a greatly furnished room with nothing out of place.

"Kevin I need the paper work completed in a hour." Cameron says as he emerges out of the bathroom.

Once his eyes meet mine he isn't shocked. Well his face carries no emotion and all and the familiar dark features remind me of when he was ruthless and arrogant.

"Meeting is in an hour." He remind me.

The tone of his voice makes me jump at first but then I compose myself and try to act like the strong woman I try to make myself.

"We need to talk. No lawyers. No extras. Just you and I. Husband and wife." I keep my voice calm and steady.

Cameron begins to laugh but I know it isn't that humerus lively one. It's his devilish reason to bite back at me and laugh at me.

"You think that romantic bull shit works on me anymore? I let you open to that side of me but you sealed that back up again." He tells me and I feel my stomach literally flip.

"Please don't do this Cameron. I need you as much as you need me. We have a family and life we have built don't throw it away now." I beg him my eyes watering but I refuse to let myself go.

"What's the point anymore Melissa? I'm always going to be away from you running my business and I need to be free to be with anyone I want and do my thing." Cameron shrugs trying to seem unfazed but I know him strangely to well.

"I'm sorry I kept it from you but you made it harder for me to tell you!"

"You know I lost my child when I was younger and how I reacted when I thought you were pregnant before we got married and you still did this to me!"

"Is this all because your scared? This baby's death had nothing to do with you it was a complication with its growing inside me nothing could of prevented it or for that matter cause it." I assure him but he refuses to answer.

"We don't need each other, we will be okay eventfully even if now we're hurting." Cameron nods mostly to himself I think.

"We're each other's safe haven."

His eyes meet mine and I feel so anxious I could throw up, even though I'm married to Cam he makes me nervous and excited and crazy but mostly anxious.

"I can't be saved." He mutters.

"Stop being so morbid and move on Cameron. I love you so much and Christian is a product of that. If you can't see it right now just look at our son." I beg him stepping closer to him.

I know he isn't in the most best mood but I can test his reactions.

"Just come back to me please and we can forget about this! There doesn't have to be these complications." I tell him.

"I don't know what I'm doing!" He groans and he places and tugs at his hair like a mad man.

"You make me so insane! I'm losing my damn mind!" He shouts even louder as he throws his fist in the air and falls to the ground.

Cameron begins to repeatedly smash his hands into the ground and in the next blinks I see the titles turn from white to red.

Through his breakdown and my frozen state I feel a small drop hit the ground  in front of him and by one loud yell I see a sense I have never witnessed.

Cameron breaking down into not only a fit but emotional as he broke into tears in front of me.

Cameron has never cried in front of me and I never imagined he would. He seems to manly or grown and mature too be so fragile. To see him in this stage shocks and confuses me.

So I carefully bow to his level and wrap my arms around my husband and even though he pushes me harder than any one ever has and curses me out.

I hold on tight to the only thing that could ever break me and pull me together back again.

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IM NOT TRYING TO COMPLAIN & IM A REALLY POSITIVE PERSON SO PLEASE DONT THINK I ALWAYS COMPLAIN ITS JUST A ISSUE AFFECTING ME!

Not my best I know but I forced myself to write this.

Yeah I don't have the urge to write but I am because I need to finial this for myself and you guys .

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