Revenge | Sequel to Harsh (DISCONTINUED)

Five

"I just don't understand, it felt like it was real." I tell Andy, after I informed her about my vivid dream I had about Austin. "It felt like it was more of a memory than a dream, now it won't stop replaying in my head."

Andy had sat there the whole time, listening to me, not saying a word. She had been supportive throughout all of the trauma I've gone through. It must be a lot for her to handle every time I have a breakdown, kind of like the one I was having now.

"Luke, I really don't think there's anything to worry about. Austin was not apart of anything, that's impossible. I think it's just your head making you think there's something wrong. Maybe it was triggered from when he came over the other night," She responds. I could tell she trying really hard to be patient with me, which made me fell like I was dumb.

"So do you think I'm crazy? I have a gut feeling about this, Andy." I state. She was the only one who truly got me, and now, she is acting like I'm insane.

"No, Luke I don't think you're crazy. I think you've been through enough, and Austin is your brother for god's sake. Don't do this to yourself." She replies back. She gets up and gets ready to go to school, which she had been doing very good job in. This also made me feel like he was a loser, what was I even doing with my life?

"So am I just suppose to let it go and pretend everything is normal?"

"Yes because everything is normal, Luke. Nothing even happened."

"But, it feels like-" I start.

"Yes, Luke, it feels like it did. You're driving yourself mad. Just let it go."

"I can't let it go," I say quietly.

Andy sighs and looks at me, "You have to try. Do you even realize what you're saying? You think your brother is part of your kidnapping."

"I know it sounds weird but he was helping me, and I don't even remember how I got out! This might be something!"

"If that's the case, then why hasn't he told you? Luke it's just not logical."

"Maybe he's scared."

"Of what? Stop thinking so much in depth there's nothing you can do about it now." She finishes.

I don't respond. Andy was getting irritated with me now, which didn't happen very much. We never fight like we use to, and I think that's partly because of what I went through, Andy never wanted me to go through conflict. Now that it's months after it happened, she is slowly not taking my shit. Which is what I need, I didn't need to have a constant reminder of what happened.

"I'm leaving now, have psych class in 15 minutes." Andy says as she grabs her bag.

"Okay bye, love you." I say, but the door closes before she hears me.

I take a deep breath, now I know she's mad. But I guess I understand, I'm making a big deal over something that probably didn't happen. I'm still not convinced though, but I'll keep that to myself.

Now I have an entire day to do nothing, and staying in this apartment all alone will not help me whatsoever. So I decide to take a walk, just to my local park. Maybe fresh air will help my head.

On my way to the park, I pop in my earphones, and play my current favorite music, which has been Halsey's badlands. Very relatable content. The air is brisk, and the sun is shining, it's a great day to be outside. I'm proud of myself that I resisted my urge to watch Netflix all day.