A Do Or Die Situation (Sequel to To Offset The Shakes) // Andy Hurley/Trohley

Author's Note

You know, I was super excited about this book and being able to share it with you guys, but honestly, like only two people care about it (MadnessAtTheDisco you're one of them, ilysm<3). The next chapter is where everything really picks up, but I'm kind of wondering if it's even worth it anymore??

Ever since I finished my Peterick Mpreg Series, my shit just doesn't get read anymore. I've considered making another book to that series just so people MIGHT read my stuff again. I've gained such a following on here, and to see that all go away just bc I finished ONE series, it kind of hurts me. Is that all you guys were in this for? Just for my mpreg series? Why not give my other stories a read? Yeah, they may be shitty, but it would mean a lot to me.

I don't know if I should stay or leave, to be honest, and this may seem drastic, but my followers and my writing mean a lot to me, and for me to not even want to do it anymore, I don't know, that kind of hurts me even more. Writing used to be SO fun for me, and it used to be a way for me to get my feelings out, but now I just don't fucking care.

I used to live to be on this website and live to see all your guys' comments on my stories about how much you loved the chapter or how much you couldn't believe what happened! But now, I really am considering just stopping; just stopping everything once and for all, and maybe just continue on AO3.

I'm not saying that this is your guys' fault at all for making me feel this way; in all honesty, it's mine because I overthink everythiiiing. I long to be wanted/accepted in people's lives, even on social media. I feel like if people don't read/read but not vote/read but don't comment on my stories, then it means I'm a shitty writer (which I honestly am) and people just don't care. I'm just so insecure about everything in my life, so when I come on here, I come to escape and to feel wanted, but I can't seem to do either of those things anymore. I don't want to be on here much anymore. I just don't.

In all honesty, all of this just comes down to me and my own problems. I overthink things. And, literally, if you like this story or even me as a person/writer, you have to tell me. I literally just assume people don't like me unless they tell me. My best friend and I had a conversation about that earlier last week and I guess I finally showed her who I really was. I'm just a fucked up girl searching for something to be good at.

I'm sorry if I sounded like I'm attacking you, that's not what I meant to do. I always have some author's note in every story ranting about something, right? Sorry, guys. I really do love all of you that are still here by my side and reading my new stories. You faithful ones mean a lot to me<3