An Unimaginable Love

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"Krissy" I hear my name as I'm pulled from my sleep.
My eyes start to flutter open. "Krissy we found becca, she's safe in her room." I think I'm dreaming until Tony wraps his arms around me.

"What happened" I ask.
"Johnny boy and already put a tracking device in her phone, so it was easy enough to find her, I had no other choice than to end their whole mafia group."
"How is she? Was she hurt? They can't traffic anymore women?"
"She's fine, she's sleeping, she has a few bruises, nothing major, and no they have been completely stopped. Krissy were are we?" I knew he was talking about our relationship.

"I don't know. I get that this situation is over, but will becca be the last person I care about that gets hurt, that gets there life threatened?" I look him in the eyes.
"I'm going to say this. I don't know what will happen if you stay with me, I have no idea if anyone else will try to hurt you or your family, the people you care about, but I do know that I will do everything in my power to prevent any harm to come to you or the people you love. Krissy this is new to me, iv never let anyone talk to me as a equal, iv always had the upper hand, I have never worried about someone walking away from me because I knew thy didn't have a choice. You hold my heart Krissy, you can tear me apart or hold me together. That's all up to you. I can't leave the mafia, this is who I am. I told you that. I thought you accepted me, but now I'm not so sure, I need to know what you want. I have to no. If your scared to be with me, then I'll walk away, if you can tell me that you don't love me and you can't be with me, and you don't accept me then I'll be a man, step up and go about my life, I'll be a heartbroken mess but I'll go."

He was out of breath when he finished talking. The look in his eyes were pleading and I didn't realize I was crying until the top of my shirt was soaking wet with tears. Can I tell Tony, the only person that I have truly loved outside of my family, that I can't be with him? I know Tony will protect me and anyone else he needs to. I need Tony just as much as he needs me and I knew this the moment I saw him.

"I love you Tony, so much. And I need you as much as you need me, if not more. I accept everything about you. I accept you. And I'm sorry for going off. I'm not scared to be with you, I know without a doubt that you will keep me safe. I want to be yours, and you mine, always. I want to marry you."

He let out a long breath, making me realize that he was holding his breath while I was talking.

I need to assure him that I want him, now that I could have lost him, more than I ever have.

I kiss him. I kiss him telling him how much I need him. Letting my tounge tell him everything that I can't.

He returns my confessional kiss, telling me his unspoken words. I knew exactly what he was saying. He was sorry for what has happened, he blames himself, and he was scared of loosing me. I need my words to tell him more.

"It was not your fault, baby. Don't blame yourself, I don't blame you and I don't blame myself. I will always be yours, always. Even if one day, you no longer want me to be, and you no longer see yourself as mine, I will always be yours, even if I didn't want to be."

Our confession, turned into making love until we were both sure that we would never leave each other, that we were designed to fit together like a puzzel.

"Everyone's outside boiling crawfish" I said to Tony as he was getting dressed for the day.

After Tony and I finished making up, last night I went down to check on becca, and that's when I realized she was one of the strongest people I have ever known. She acted like nothing happened. She just wanted everyone to act like nothing happened. She made it known that she loved johnny boy as much as I loved tony, and she will stand by him. I told her I hope the best for both of them. I really ment that.

Tony and I walked hand in hand, outside with the rest of my family and our friends. The day whent fast, I guess its true, time fly's by when your having a good time. We talked and laughed.

It was so strange to have a day full of fun, when just hours ago, everyone's world was turned upside down.

After showering and climbing in bed with Tony, I was thankful for the comfortable bed we shared, and I was actually ready to go back to New York, mostly because I've missed working.

"I have to tell you something" he says intrupting my thoughts.

"Okay, what?"
"I took care of everything for the wedding, already."
"What? When? What do you mean?" I was confused. Really confused.
"Yesterday, before I woke you up to tell you about becca, I made calls and I already know exactly how you want the wedding to be and I have everything done. Tomorrow you can go look for you a dress, my family will be flying in tomorrow also and I have them booked at the hotel in town."
"Tony, I don't know what to say, I'm sure everything you picked will be beautiful. What about my dress? Or the bridesmaid dresses? And who's actually standing in the wedding?" I had so many questions. I never thought that I would have nothing to do with planning my own wedding.
He laughed while answering." You can go tomorrow and get your dress, bring whoever you want, you can wait for my mother to get hear, she's bringing my cousins, they have already agreaded to stand if you needed them. You can be the judge of that once you meet them but I've already thought of a standing order. Hear me out, then tell me what you think." He waited for me to nod and when I did, he continued. "Your maid of honor and my best man will obviously walk to togeather, Vince and Abby. Following them Johnny boy and becca, baby face and steph, one of my cousins and dustin, my other cousin and mark. The rest of my men and jer can be ushers. They can make sure everyone sits correctly, or if someone needs help sitting."

It all sounded perfect. It worked out for the best.

Wait...

"What will the wedding look like?"