[<\3]Am I reading it wrong? Did I? What's wrong? Nothing. Everything. What happened? Why? Why did it have to be like this? I'm afraid. I'm falling. A never ending free fall. I need something to break this terrible fall. There's nothing to catch me. It's gone. I let it go. Who am I? What did I do? Why am I like this? I need help. Help won't come. I'm alone. I can't conquer it this time. I'm broken. My heart is shattered. I can't say why. It's a secret. Secret. The thing that killed me. The secretive cycle. I'm crying. What are these emotions? Why? What am I looking for? I need an answer. What am I looking for? Why? What happened. I can't handle this dangerous tango. This fearsome....- I'm a fool. Why? I can't stop the tears. It won't ever go away now. The wounds are too deep. I waited. I waited. Everything is moving too fast. It's all a blur. Am I in control? Of course not. I'm weak. Please save me. Please save me. Save me. I'm frightened. Who am I? What am I capable of? Will I find out? I'm a monster. Carrying a deadly facade. I'm not who you think I am. Not anymore. How cliche. But it's not. It is. I'm wasted. I can't say. It's a secret. I don't deserve it. Im too far gone. I'm afraid. How could I? What? What did I do? I waited. I waited. I waited and the time ran out. I wasn't desperate. I craved it. I'm craving it. Now I'm empty. It's wrong. This isn't what I wanted. I was wrong. I thought. But I thought wrong. Or did I. It's too late. It's over. This isn't goodbye world. This is just goodbye. Goodbye Jasmine. Goodbye llama. Goodbye. Hello depression. Depression? Are you sure? Depressed is a strong word. I'm overwhelmed. Im done for. I'm done. It's over. It was wrong. I thought I was wrong. This is me. I'm cluttered. I'm drowning. In what? GET UP. GET THE FUCK UP. THEN KICK YOURSELF BACK DOWN. Why? Its done. I'm finished. I had so much. The wrong person asked for it. I needed somebody to love. She didn't come. I thought wrong. Now it's all over. Who do I have? I'm sorry. Why? My head is spinning. I'm out of control. Its late. I'm late. She was late. Is it my fault?.. Of course it is. But why? Please help me... I'm crying.. Someone might hear. I don't have the strength to face myself. I don't have the strength. I'm broken. Forever haunted by those three words. Three words. To ruin it all. Three songs, to drown it all out. Three pills to forget about it. Pills? From where? No. That isn't the answer. Or is it. What can hurt worse than a broken heart. How long does it last? I can't do this by myself. Please come back. I can't stop the tears from falling. I can't tell you how I feel. You wouldn't understand. What do you think of me now? I'm sorry. Please COME BACK. SAVE ME. I'M DROWNING. FALLING IN A NEVER ENDING FREE FALL. i can't stop.. I love you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I can't explain my self. Why. Why won't you understand? Please help me. I love you. I'm shaking. Why can't I start over. What happened? It wasn't suppose to be this way. I was wrong. Love..isn't..real.. Or is it. Of course not. It's a made up feeling to blind you. Or is it? Of course not. Love is real. And I love you. I couldn't handle the pressue. What have I gotten myself into? I'm sorry. This is goodbye.. It will never be the same.. I'm sorry. Im sorry I let you down. Or did I? Am I wrong? Whats happening..? I can't breathe. This will never see the light of day. Who am I kidding? I'll end up showing you. I don't have the strength nor the words to tell you. I won't tell. This is me. No one but me will feel my feelings just from reading some pathetic words and then some. No one will feel the pain. This extreme sorrow inside of me. Now it's time to put on a happy face right? Of course.... I just want someone to love. He took interest in me, and I foolishly took the bait. Why? This is my punishment. Would the hot under world of hell feel better than what I'm feeling now? Of course. I'm confused. Im an idiot. I'm sorry. I was wrong. What is life? Who am I? What am I doing this for? Life. Why am I living? Living? Oh no dear. You're alive. Just not living.
Snap out of it. I can't. This isn't real. I must be dreaming. But even then. I've never dreamed of this. It's complete chaos. This was never suppose to happen. We were never suppose to happen. She made it clear. I gave her the chances didn't I? I just wanted to be loved.. It's wrong. He's wrong. This isn't what I want. This isn't what I want. Why is this happening to me? Please come back. This wasn't supposed to happen. I've become obsessed. Has it ruined me? Please come back. I'm nothing without her. Nothing but a sobbing mess. STOP CRYING. YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF. This isn't helping. My emotions can't just be transferred into words. That's what tears are for I suppose. They weren't supposed to fall for her. I need you. Now I'm alone. What have I done. What do I do? I need help. Please help me. Please come back. I'm sorry.. Im sorry. I love you. Three words. They have no meaning now. It's too late. All I could do was sit by and pretend it wasn't real. We were friends. Nothing more. Am I wrong? I admitted myself. Why didn't you say anything? Why didn't she say anything..? She made it a point it was before. Not now. What is she thinking? Am I wrong? What was I thinking? What AM I thinking? She said what she meant and she meant what she said. Right? I wasn't blind. I'm not blind. Too blind to see? Never. I knew it all along. She just needed to say it and I just needed to hear it. But we didn't. She didn't. I didn't.... She didn't... Why? Am I mistaken? Correct me if I'm wrong. What is it? I'm tired. So very tired. Sleep. It will all be better in the morning.. But it won't. Because of those three words. I thought wrong. NO. DON'T SLEEP. WHO GIVES A FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE. its all pointless. She was my reason. To what? Everything. I sacrificed for her. Maybe not a lot, but what did I have in the first place? Now I have even less. Do I just forget about it? Do I say something? These cluttered thoughts. Could she make out what's in between? No. Who has the time? Pointless thoughts. Midnight. Pointless. Pointless pointless pointless. Less. Less than before. Where are you now that I need you? I welcome the pain. Welcome back old friend! I knew something would happen. My bad moods. Something was bound to happen. And it did. But why this? Anything but this. Why her? Why him? WHY HIM? What are YOU THINKING?! AM I WRONG? YOU DIDN'T GIVE ME ANYTHING, SO I TOOK IT FROM SOMEONE ELSE. I'm afraid.. I'm broken. Please help. I've got nothing left.
