Sulli
Holding the ring that Sehun gave me, I stared at the blank television. The rain poured heavily as the storms made me snapped back to reality.The ring fell on the floor thus made my mother yelp in pain when she stepped on the ring. She took it and sighed at me.
She sat on the couch before she took my hands. She was wearing a white blazer with a black button shirt and a white pants. Considering that she's just got back from the company. My mother doesn't looks like she already 40 even though she is. She's not that slim or fat. You would say her size is just fine. Her brownish eyes and black wavy hair and light makeup made her into perfect woman.
Not to mention my father is not to bad too. Handsome and responsible is just enough to describe him. I would proudly admit that my mother and father are the most perfect married couple ever that I wished to become one.
"Are you okay honey?" My mom said which makes me realized I have been staring at her like a crazy daughter.
"Yeah." I said before slowly taking back my ring from her hands.
"You know what?" She gently put my bangs behind my ears before continued on her mid sentence. "You always can tell me if something bothering you." She smiled and caressed my cheeks.
"Really. Nothing." My head hang low to hide my already shaky eyes. My eyes that lost their way, cry.
"Hey. What's wrong?" There is concerned in her tone and soft that makes me want to cry more. Instead of answering, I cried in her arms. I cried more when I remembered my conversations with Sehun this evening.
Lotte world flashback
"I just-" before he even finished his sentence, I cut him.
"You are just hanging out with her right? No more than that." My words was sounds like a pathetic girlfriend and my voice were rather low than it was.There was a long gap before he answered with his really low voice.
"Of course." That was his answer that slightly made my heart stopped. But I just can't slap him. Inhaled, I controlled my heart.
'Of course.' obviously a words that describe you are defending yourself and more like you are in a confuse state for me. I don't know why but his words were hurting me and I hate myself for not believing in him.
"What is wrong with us?" I asked him with my shaky voice as I low my head to not showing him my already wet eyes.
"I don't know." was all he said. I bit my lips not to produce any sounds. I gathered all my courage to ask him one question that either will leave me in pain or in dilemma. " Do you love me?"
Instead of an answer , he gave a silence and pain to me. And that is the moment my tears fell on the ground. With a heavy heart like a bullet embedded in my heart, I slowly got up and faced him.
"Because I love you." I said before walked away. I gave him one more glance as I walked away and I saw Myungsoo was talking to him in serious face before catching up to me. The girl named Joohyun was nowhere in my sight.
My eyes emit a warm fluid as I recalled those memories. I bit my lips wishing my pain to reduced and it is kind of does as I felt my own blood. I knew this would happen and I'm too dumb to even realized that I should be more prepared in the past. My feets curled up as the cold breeze brushed against my foot. I hate dark and being in the dark but not tonight. I deliberately turned off the lamp and so my night stand to symbolize my situation.
Hugging my knee, I firmly grasped the ring and closed my eyes in hopes this was all a dream. But before my wish could even granted, my phone rang and it lighten my room. I grabbed my phone on the table before I felt the urge to cry again. It's funny how the people who always made you smile turn into the one who made you want to cry even more. I felt hesitant to answer his call but I can't.
