Someday

Is this love? Maddie

     **Hey peoples! I finally cast Maddie!! Gwen Stefani? Yay or nay? Vote comment share please :) Always-Okay please don't kill me for the long wait, I have a life outside of writing**
It's over. This two month ordeal is over. I already miss him. If I didn't know dad was an organ donor, I would have never let them pull the plug. But I knew he would have wanted to help others. Now all we can do is wait and see who will continue on dads life. I still have to deal with Ashton. How do I handle it? Do I blow up, act cool, or just ignore it. Okay okay, ignoring it was a long shot for you to believe... I try to act cool. I really do.

"Ashton. Who's Michaela? And don't lie to me." I whisper to myself to stay strong. He is at fault here. Not me.

       "You heard that? I guess I'll fess up. Michaela is my bang buddy. I'm sorry, please don't be mad. I was telling her to stop tonight," his eyes avoid mine.

     "Seriously. So break it off is code for hookup now? I could hear the conversation. Unlike some people, k actually care about what happens in my friends' lives. So tell the truth, please!" I feel weak. Why is this so fracking hard?
      "Fine... It's just... You were sad and didn't want to... I didn't know what to do... I'm.... Sorry okay?"
     Well sh... Sugar... Yeah, sugar. We'll go with that. I like him a lot. How do I make him faithful. Then I say the words I wish everyday I could take back. "I never said that..." I feel dirty just saying this. God, why am I doing this? "I just said I didn't do it to strangers. You aren't a stranger anymore." I wink at him and feel awful. I sigh. What will he say? He grins. What?
     "I'll call Kayla off right now. I'll drop you off at your house. You're home alone you said? I'll call Kayla off, you can get ready. 11:00 okay?" He already has his phone out. He must be sincere. I smile and nod and he opens the door for me. "See you soon. I love you. He kisses me roughly and grabs my butt. I scream inwardly but keep kissing regardless. I walk inside confidently, run into the bathroom, and cry. Crying as I change into lingerie, which I stole from Mila, I think to myself.
      All I can remember is dad's advice. Be strong. Did that apply to rape? No, I tell myself, it is not rape, I consented. Why I will never know. I can do this. Put on a show. I've heard stories, heard what to do, and I'm sure he is experienced. I can do this. He opens the door. He has roses and champagne. He gasps when he sees me, and he licks his lips. He thrusts the flowers into my hand and brandishes two glasses. He pours mea glass, and the tension is thick. I speak first. "I'm really excited for this. I always wanted my first time to be with someone i love." I smile flirtatiously and he winks and smiles.
     "You're just too hot not to be loved. You sure you're a virgin?" He lifts an eyebrow and I nod rigorously. "Good, I like being a girls first, set the standards high for other guys. If we break off. I might make an acception for you." He winks again and I blush. The champagne is working its way through my system. Good, if I'm bad I blame it on the alcohol, he finishes off the bottle and slams it down. He tells me to close my eyes so he can decorate. I'm giddy. I still can't believe, I, Madeline Piko, am about to live every girls dream tonight. He opens the door and is still fully closed. I frown, but walk in. There are roses everywhere, candles, and more wine. I grin and shut he door. No details for you, creepy reader. Let's just say, I will forever regret that day. Never do what I did.
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